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to bestfriend

2012-01-21T23:29:00.003+08:00

bestfriend.

salah seorang tu name die FAA; faraatikahazlan.

harini disebabkan salah diri ini, absent minded, going with the flow,

tak fikir pjg, management failure, shahilashaifful tersakitkan kawan baik die sendiri.

ok bukan kawan baik je, die la bestfriend, die la sahabat.

bestfriend, kite nak minta maaf dkt awak ni.

sorry ye bestfriend. kite dah sakitkan awk.

kite tak sengaje pun.

bestfriend, sile la marah kite ni. marah sampai cool ye.

nanti dah cool, kite baik balik. pastu kite kawan.

jadi kawan sampai syurge ye bestfriend.

aku syg kau tau FAA. jgn la tak syg aku.

aku manusia biasa yg buat silap.

*muka puss in boots*

aku dan itik menunggu kat sini. ASAP, free, dtg la jumpe aku. aku rindu kau.

so jgn la marah aku ye bestfriend. tak sengaja, serious.

bestfriends adelah precious and priceless. tak boleh beli. tak boleh ganti.

someone precious to shahilashaifful will always be precious,

as long as she is given the privileges; the chance and the rights to love and to cherish them.

ok kepade semua bestfriends shahilashaifful, good night.

kepade yg teman baking tetibe arini, MY & NZSAZ, terime kasih. syg korg jgk.

salam :)

saje nak tulis, tak de idea pun sbnrnye

2012-01-20T21:37:00.003+08:00

sedang cuba nak penuhkan cuti dgn activities yg berfaedah. walaupun mcm tunggul je duduk rumah stp hari. try try try dan try buat good deeds. :)

change. im changing. i think im changing.

if its for the better. for the greater good. alhamdulillah. :)

semicolon dan bracket kiri

2012-01-11T18:15:00.006+08:00

senyum je shahila.

hati, sila bertenang ye. noktah.

it'll be fine.

fikiranrawakshahila

2012-01-10T20:19:00.005+08:00

as in.. shahila's random thinking.. kan?

eh? ok tak lawak pun. ye saye tau.

tadi jalan-jalan terfikir..

"i want people around me to be hapy; - so i can be hapy too." :)

lps tu nampak line ini tadi..

"jgn tunggu bahagia utk senyum, senyumlah utk bahagia."

banyak sedekahkan senyuman. mane tahu boleh bantu orang yang memerlukan pade mase tu kan. contoh macam ade orang tgh down. kite senyum die tersenyum.

target shahilashaifful tahun ini;

spread kindness.

maafkan orang.

jangan marah-marah.

senyum banyak-banyak.

sangka baik.

sabar.

- semoga Allah bg kekuatan nak capai semua ni.

paling takut kalau someday, somewhere, somehow, i accidentally atau tak accidentally tersakitkan orang yg tersayang, yg disayangi. harap tak kan jadi. i want to be the best for those people. org yg boleh diharap bila mereka memerlukan.

"dear Allah, please protect shahila from hurting orang yang shahila sayang. ameen."

when they're in pain;

give me the power to heal them

draw smiles on their faces

be there for them

always.

lps enamjam heart2heart session smlm. tersedar byk benda.

stay strong ye. im here for you, always.

la tahzan; 'Verily, with hardship there'll be ease'

may peace be upon you people. doakan saye esok ade paper maths (dah tak larat nak study, withdrawal syndrom, blergh). tp pojitip shahila pojitip, minta tolong dkt Allah. tp sebelum tu sila pegi study *pang kiri kanan*

say alhamdulillah

2012-01-07T11:49:00.005+08:00

alhamdulillah, i've been given another day to live.

alhamdulillah, i've been given a chance to meet wonderful people in my life.

say alhamdulillah; alhamdulillah.

skrg ni hati rasa sayu.

mungkin sbb shahilashaifful:

a) penat

b) stress

c) emo

d) mood swing

e) exam

and the list goes on.

tp rasenye, most of it di dominasi oleh perasaan terharu, bersyukur kat Allah.

dah time exam di kala stress ni, bbm penghubung shahilashaifful dgn junior yg sgt dirindui (ok pergh jiwang nye ayat haha, ok saya mmg si romantis berhati taman bunga). FarhaanaIshak. Alhamdulillah Allah bg kitorg jadi kawan. sbb kalau nak tahu, dlu kitorg ni macam musuh ketat, macam anjing dgn kucing, pandang jelingjeling. lawak kalau fikir balik.

sumpah, sem ni first time rasa susahnya study (ok mungkin tipu, sebelum ni pun selalu je down down x yakin) tp mmg kali ni rasa lain macam. rasa nak nangis bila study. banyak nye nak catch.

Alhamdulillah ada kawankawan yg supportive. ada orgorg yg syg shahilashaifful, alhamdulillah. walaupun fnachan tu junior, rasanye die lagi mature hehe. nasihatnasihat die byk membantu utk saatsaat genting, mencabar dan menduga ni.

pagi td, dapat satu wallpost dr fnachan. serious terharu. sgt terharu rasa macam perlukan 10 kotak tisu premier ready utk menyambut hujan air mata deras mcm air terjun (kata air hujan tetibe terjun plk err..)

alhamdulillah; this has made me happy today :')

Allah bg shahilashaifful peluang untuk jumpa org yg sayang shahilashaifful.

contohnya, dah dekat akhir sem ni, makin indah and comel and rase best relationship dgn kakak-kakak kat bilik ni :') they're so kind and loving sbb tu kalau boleh tak nak tukar bilik. nak samesame biarla jauh pun, biarla panas terik letih nak jalan jauh gila ke hujung utk sampai ke mahallah. as long as there's a sense of belonging, looking forward nk balik bilik, that is worth all the pain.

shahilashaifful'snyaunyauproject; a drawing from kak wan.

it was unexpected. dpt one page of nice lines, adiksygkakaktoo ok segan sekarang, sila segan sekarang shahila hee. *terharu lagi* :')

dear Allah, i thank you for everything. alhamdulillah.

skrg nk study. Allah, please, tolong ShahilaShaifful. and for her friends yg tgh exam dan akan exam;

Kak Tasnim yg exam kejap lg.

fnachan, yg exam dalam mase 24jam.

And thatperson, good luck and may everything be easy for you #9.

insyaAllah ameen.

""The line between failure and success is so fine that we scarcely know when we pass it - so fine that we often are on the line and do not know it."

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson "

kite anak pakcik shaifful

2012-01-06T20:22:00.005+08:00

mama and ayang nak dtg kejap lg. nk belanja makan. tp dah kenyang. bila tanya

mama: 'sha nak makan ape?'

ss: 'icecreammmm!!'

tanpa berlengah itu yg keluar lajulaju dgn penuh keyakinan. yay outing lg. hehe. dah berharihari terperap dalam bilik mmg exhausting.

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terfikir.. kadangkadang kan, teringin jgk kalau ayah plk yg dtg melawat kat uia ni bawak makan tuttifrutti. atau share coklat samesame macam dulukale. :3

ayah suka share. die tak bagi makan melampaui batasan bila die beli coklet or snacks. die suruh makan dulu makanan, then share coklat tu samarata. tak kire la m&ms ke, crunchies ke, smarties ke, cadbury ke, asal kan coklat.

ayah comel. haha.

good-ol'-times-shahilashaifful+AYAH;

ayah kite name die shaiffulanuar. tp nenek pgl die wan. kenape tah. haha. misteri sampai harini.
ayah geng dgn shahilashaifful dulu. selalu buli mama bersamesame. hehehe.
ayah buat, shahila ikut. copy cat. cara ayah sikat rambut, tuck-in baju, gel rambut, cara tulis, itu ini semua nak jadi mcm ayah.
ayah suke buat lawak sebelum tido. pernah guraugurau gelakgelak sampai duatigapagi, kena marah dgn jiran 'OIII DIAMLAH!!' hahaha.
ayah selalu suke cakap terbalik-terbalik macam 'yuabe', 'kismin', 'yake' (read: buaya, miskin, kaye)
ayah sgt pandai dan serious bila belajar, cemerlang la katekan. kalau anak die yg sorg ni hebat mcm tu jgk kan bagus.
ayah selalu ckp dia singa. lionking, mufasa tu die. so we're best buddies, im simba. :P
ayah dgn shahila punya favourite phrase is 'Hakuna Matata - it means no worries'
ayah sgt smart spjg mase, walau berjambang kalah mufasa lion king.
ayah pembersih tahap ultrabersih.
ayah lg hebat dalam bidang organize barang die. kalau tgk die susun bag travel tsk tsk mampu geleng kepala je, hebat sgt.
ayah serious dan menakutkan, tp die tak penah pukul, cubit, sakitkan anak-anak die.
ayah selalu tak sampai hati nak marah shahilashaifful. tp kalau die betul marah sebut 'shahila' dgn tegas dah meleleh air mata macam air terjun.
ayah tak suka kena desak. hehe. dulu masa kecik suke desak ayah ajak keluar main. pastu ayah tensyen. cuak. hehe.
ayah cakap english berabuk. kenapa la anak die ni xikut.
ayah engineer. dulu selalu kate nk jd engineer jgk. xpun architect so boleh kerja sebelah ayah.
ayah la paling hensem di mata ni mase kecik. berebut dgn mama nak ayah. AHAHA :P
ayah plg sporting kalau bab tak nak pegi sekolah. mintak kat mama kena marah. mintak kat ayah 'ok sambung la tidur, rehat, esok pegi sekolah ye'.
ayah tempat mengadu bila stress time diploma. email ayah ckp xboleh buat xboleh buat. walaupun katakata mcm 'i know u can do it nak bla3' tu well mcm katakata je, tp it helps. rasa protected
ayah suke pen Parker/Sheaffer. dulu besday ayah je harus belikan pen :)
ayah pandai melukis. dulu kalau ada pertandingan ke, pendidikan seni ke, nak jgk xkire nak ayah tolong :D
ayah buat susu lg sedap dr mama. hahahahahaha. mase kecik kalau time ayah ada, nangis nak ayah bancuhkan, xnak mama bancuh.
ayah dulu selalu outstation, sbb ayah satu malaysia dah pegi, kecuali sarawak.
ayah dulu nak namakan kite, dayangku shahila. haha nasib baik lah tak boleh. ish. T_T
ayah nampak garang, tp die penyayang :)
ayah dtg makan dgn shahilashaifful stp hari mase kecik dulu time lunch.
ayah lepas lunch, bawak shahilashaifful pegi 4-5 kedai runcit wajib utk beli stock gulagula, keropok & toys setiap hari.
ayah penah sedih hati sbb shahilashaifful ckp dgn mama 'ila rs ayah dah xbrape syg dkt ila la ma'. mama bgtau ayah lepas tu. hahaha. esok tu ayah bg gulagula dgn pencilcase penuh stationary stuffs.
ayah dulu selalu belikan buku english sminggu sekali. suruh (paksa) baca demi kebaikan masa depan. shahilashaifful selalu beli jgk tp xbaca. dah besar baru baca. ahaha.
ayah selalu dapat surat, cards, art stuffs, nota-hajat and lovenote dr shahilashaifful.
ayah simpan semua benda yg shahilashaifful lukis, buat, bg dalam laci dkt office. masa spm die pulangkan semua utk buat smgt. hee. *terharu*
ayah dgn shahilashaifful duadua suka sgt dgn lionking.
birthday ke 10 ayah bg dvd lionking2- simba's pride dgn baby-g. bahagia tak terkata.
ayah pergi mekah first time mase shahilashaifful darjah 3 kot. mulamula mase doa selamat cool je. sekali ayah dah masuk kereta nak pegi airport, kejar sambil nangisnangis. haha.
ayah geng shahilashaifful mase kecik, kecuali time dmm auto geng mama. haha *pangg*
ayah dgn shahilashaifful duadua tak suka lipas. ergghhh!
ayah suka bawak pegi makan lasagna kat subangparade lps tu share samesame
ayah hebat. die boleh tahu kalau org sentuh barang die walau barang tu hanya gerak 0.000001milimeter dr tpt asal :3
ayah is an overprotective father. hehe. jawapan utk ke langkawi bersama kawan diploma sem 3 masih xde jawapan smpi skrg. masih berstatus: 'nanti ayah fikir dulu'. :P
ayah suka futsal & badminton and shahilashaifful rase itu sgt cool :D
ayah yang dgn sabar ajar shahilashaifful naik basikal mase kecikkecik dulu.
ayah is my hero since forever until forever ends, and jstyk, forever never ends.
ayah is turning 47 this year.
ayah how i wish i can see you, real soon.
ayah ckp dlm sms barubaru ni, die syg shahilashaifful. heehee. ♥ :)
ayah ayah ayah, i miss you so much ayah.
ayah whatever it is, i'll always be ur daughter, and i'll always love you :)

fuhhh, akhirnye siap jgk. penat perah otak 47 facts ni :3

kenapa dgn post ni? tetibe je. ni boleh buat birthday post ni; 47 facts sempena 47 tahun ayah tahun ni. haha. tp dah alang2 type harini. birthday post awalawal? heheh. smgt gile. birthday ayah bulan 5 kot shahila. mungkin sbb stress study. mcm post sblm ni kata:

bila stress study mula la nak mengada macam-macam. bila susah study je mesti igt ayah. nk kate beliau amik IT jgk sungguh lah tidak. mgkn harap genius beliau akan dpt ditransfer ke diri ini;

"I wish life is like when I was still a kid, when I'm down, when I fall, ayah will come n pick me up n stop me cry :'3"

eh barubaru ni selalu igt ayah. rindu. tp pemalas betul nak email beliau. *head desk* ok lah malam karang akan email beliau. hehe.

today im hapy.

today something made me smile #9 times wider. *pangg* cukup la ngade tu. miss la. dah lame kan. haha. semua projecster, examster, reportster punya pasal la ni ;_; tp dah hapy dah so xpe.

lepas tu mama dtg pulak. belanja tuttifrutti. di bahanbahan sikit oleh mama n kembarnye. haha. baiklah. baiklah. but i had a great time.

skrg smgt nk bace maths. C++ dulu tp maths pulak didahulukan. sabar ye C++ sayang, esok ye. DB, you can wait.. err. :)

dear Allah pleaseee pinjamkan kekuatan, kerajinan, kefahaman kat shahilashaifful lagi lagi dan lagi. and also, for that person too, #9. ameen :)

s.m.s to Allah

2012-01-04T23:50:00.005+08:00

s.m.s; as in s.o.s jadinya save.my.soul.

ya Allah..

dah berjam. jam jam jam dan jam. menghadap satu ilmu yang mysteriously, susah betul nak difahamkan. satu ilmu yang satu masa dulu ilmu yg shahilashaifful suke sgt. score insyaAllah dalam tangan. skrg dah lupa. belajar balik, cara tak kena. jadinya? tak paham lgsg. lost. zero. negative. nada. kosong.

terlintas dkt hati;

"bersyukur bila faham. bukan semua org dpt nikmat faham sesuatu ilmu tu..."

macam tu rupenye jadi org yg tak dpt tangkap dalam kelas. org yang kurg paham, tak paham lgsg. perasaan try buat soalan berjam2 dkt soalan sama, guna macammacam source dan cara nak selesaikan: drpd nota dlm buku, dlm bukutext, ke perkhidmatan pakcik google.. masih lost. it hurts, sakit.

dulu suka betul kat discreet maths. skrg tengok buku tu je dah jadi trauma. buku tebal sejengkal. kalau terjatuh atas kepala mmg boleh koma tak pun sayonara terus. try baca, xpaham, explanation meraban berjela mengalahkan karangan SPM. try refer nota, nota tu lect amik dr textbook jgk. arah, shahila patut pergi ke mana ni?

bila stress study mula la nak mengada macam-macam. bila susah study je mesti igt ayah. nk kate beliau amik IT jgk sungguh lah tidak. mgkn harap genius beliau akan dpt ditransfer ke diri ini;

"I wish life is like when I was still a kid, when I'm down, when I fall,

ayah will come n pick me up n stop me cry :'3"

sbb jiwa kacau sgt bila stress td sejam duduk luar tengok bulan dgn bintang. alhmdlh. masih ade nikmat keindahan tu. dalam pada tu hati bisikbisik;

"ya Allah, shahila nak ilmu tu. tolong, pinjamkan.

i want it so badly, not just because of the exam." ;_;

xpenah la ternangis sbb study haha. rase mcm loser betul. sbb bila stress, nk study benda lain pun jadi xboleh. isk isk.

esok.. ade study group. harapharap berkesan. harapharap teranghati esok. harapharap mudah paham esok.

*TARIK NAFAS DALAMMM DALAMMM*

semoga Allah mudahkan, beri kefahaman, pinjamkan kekuatan, kuatkan ingatan. ameen.

ok dah nak tenangkan hati, rehatkan minda. salam.

notakaki: kalau ade kucing skrg ni kan bes :'(

td ddk luar ada. tp die lari, kucing penakut isk isk sampai hati *double tacing*

resolution; be-a-better-shahila.

2011-12-30T13:16:00.004+08:00

esok dah 2012? hahaha. *gelak tak percaya*

rase mcm baru je masuk 21 dah kena masuk 22. sblm ni x penah rase pun macam ni. mungkin sbb makin tua. //xpe asalkan berjiwa muda shahila :P

post ni patut nak buat masa muharram, tp sampai la ni die jadi draft. i am a master of procrastination.

Kuliyyah of Procrastination, Procrastination Club; itu semua sesuai la dgn dayangshahilashaiffulanuar. mesti dapat A++, four flat kalau wujud. haha.

ok kata nak cakap benda positive azam tp intro die negative betul :P

shahilashaifful's resolution session 2011/2012;

be a better kid in the family.
be a better sister dkt munstars (sikit pun jadi la)
*ni pun dh baik sikit la kan, dulu monsters, skrg mun[star]s //inesen
tingkatkan skills untuk survive dalam hidup :P

dont give up too fast shahila. never never.
nak belajar sbb Allah, bukan sbb exam or marks je.
sem depan nak try buat notes before class or after class.

mantapkan emotional management. jgn asyik emo je.
tingkatkan empathy, feel what other people is feeling.
teruskan Forgive & Forget.
mantapkan lagi amalan 'Tak pe' atau 'Its Ok'
*(as in; jgn marahmarah, terlalu tensyentensyen etc)

solat jaga waktu, insyaAllah. paling penting no tinggaltinggal.
minta minta minta minta manja manja manja manja dgn Allah. He likes it. :D
jgn tinggal Al-Quran, atleast 2 page, or SATU PAGE pun jd la.
nak belajar jadi hamba Allah yg bersyukur.

promise jage diri
promise belajar lelok
promise i'll wait
promise. #9

i want to be the best for Allah, for my family, #9, my friends; everyone.

ok assalam people, nk sambung study (kononnye, tp ye la haha) :)

//otak menjerit mintak berhenti.. T___________T

a small bonus and reminder for everyone and for myself;

hasil BBM dgn bestie dkt bumi Egypt. :)

fnachan, i'll definitely remember this sampai bilabila.

thankyou again sbb motivate aku yg serba negative (bila time exam) ni.

may Allah bless you dear :) ♥

#oknowgostudyshahila #forAllah

#verilyintheremembranceofAllahdoheartfindease.

selfmotivation

2011-12-29T23:06:00.003+08:00

baru tiga chapters out of tujuh. otak dah beku tepu. ngantuk. tp merapu boleh pulak. haha

mana ada merapu, nk start baca chapter 15 ni. kalau habis ni tinggal 3 chapters.

chapter 15: Motivation Theories & Practices.

nampak tak tu? nampak tak? THEORIES; ihateeee. gila gila gila. Maslow ok lagi. ERG, 2factor, acquiredneeds, equity, goal-setting, self-efficacy, reinforcement. So in all, 8 THEORIES *pengsan and i refused to bangun*

But oh well, no choice but to face it *bangun jgk anyway*

so.. jadi la kejadian yg kat bawah ini;

#motivatingself;

ICANDOIT. ICANDOIT. ICANDOIT.

dear Allah,
please help me. give me the strength to stay up. help me understand. give me the drive to study. make it easier for me to memorize stuffs. make everything smooth for me. help me not to forget everything i've studied. help me. pleaseeee. ameen. :)

take 5 (tipu.. dah berjam2 otak tak nak start study lps habis sechapter td T_____T)

#icanhazceilingcatttt. u no haz? XDb

heehee, comey tak comey takkkk? :D dah lekat kat board. ze cat is lookin at me right now. oh cat, if only i can request a hug from you, severely in need of a warrrrm hug. iwantcat. ;_; *stress*

arab tak bace lg. carrymark 50/60. alhamdulillah. kawan kate tu tak payah pegi final pun xpe, sbb dah pass. ye ke? kalau ye alhamdulillah. nanti cuti nk belajar arab betul-betul lah. mana best, pass sbb nasib baik je. -.-;

okok pegi la study shahila. letak kitkat kat tepi ok. dapat 1 page boleh makan secubit :3 *pats self*

remember; YOU, CAN DO IT. insyaAllah.

ayah pun cakap mcm tu kan. 'Dont worry, try ur best, believe in urself. ayah SAYANNNNG ila.' haa. :)

ok salam people. imna go kick chapter15 up to my brainnn (hah?)

-_________________________-;

fighting!

2011-12-28T09:03:00.003+08:00

skrg memang musim segala tok nenek moyang exams. semua org muka serious. studious mode. shahilashaifful je kat atas awan lagi. hehe. ok dah post ni bukan utk membebel. nak kate;

besties, besfrens, kawans, kesayangan;

GOOD LUCK utk exams! InsyaAllah with usaha and doa (tawakkal next) Allah will help us all. InsyaAllah the results will be fine. insyaAllah, ameen. :)

farhaanaishak; goodluck!

nuratiqmoyaz; goodluck!

emmawanielias; goodluck!

and

tothatperson; goodluck! :')

fighting! chayok! ganbatte!

insyaAllah everything will be fine. Allah will be there for us, always.

salam people, hv a very good day ;)

muka exam

2011-12-27T21:18:00.003+08:00

muka default:

（￣へ￣）

hish. hish. hish.

muka ni keluar bile stress. heh heh.

org tengok sure takut, lari 8kilobatu jauhjauh dr diri ini.

tak tahu la mungkin ritual shahilashaifful suka fikir macam-macam, lepas tu macam-macam masalah datang. berbakat sgt mencipta masalah. ish la.

semoga Allah buka jalan untuk shahilashaifful. mudahkan exam. mudahkan hafalan. segalagala jadi mudah. insyaAllah ameen :)

senyum je shahila. its gonna be fine. come rain come storm, it will pass, rainbow will come next.

#NINElanguages

2011-12-24T11:27:00.004+08:00

exam fardhu ain yg SUSAH (read: tricky) dah habis. alhmdlh. lepas ni focus arab dgn mgt sebelum core papers yg akan menyakitkan jiwa shahilashaifful starting from 10th Jan - 14th Jan. ok serabut; maka terhasil karya hari ini; #NINElanguages. bila shahila berkarya secara random.

hee hee, ok tak yah nak tipu ye shahila. dlm kertas tu ade 7 languages je. tu pun #6 n #7 tu undefined punya language.

omey tak omey takkk? karya hari ini di pagi hari :D

nak bagi jadi #NINE language.. hmm what else..

#8 Ich liebe dich

and lastly.. hmm.. hmm..

#9 syg (*pengsan* BM mmg memengsankan)

alang-alang baik cukupkan sepuluh je shahilashaifful. xnak nak #NINElanguages jgk. dah tak ade idea (padahal boleh je google). biar laaa nak #sembilan jugak xkire nak #sembilannnn. *hentak kaki*

ok sekian kemengadaan serta kemerapuan level #sembilan shahilashaifful hari ini. :D

salam people. :)

hai demam akhir tahun

2011-12-16T11:41:00.005+08:00

an apple a day.. *scratch that*

"i haz vit-A. i can haz recovery #9NINE times faster. :Db"- shahilashaifful berkata dalam hati.

alhamdulillah demam. gila? tak. kan sakit itu pengguguran dosa? bagus dosadosa kecil, sila pergi jauh.

“Tidaklah orang Muslim ditimpa cubaan berupa penyakit atau lainnya, melainkan Allah menggugurkan keburukannya, sebagaimana pohon yang menggugurkan daunnya.” (HR. Bukhari-Muslim)

alhamdulillah sleepless night kerane sakit tekak dan demam panas dah pergi. bagus, demam dan sorethroat, sila main jauh-jauh.

"Sesungguhnya, come fever or whatever. come sore throat, its like the end of the shahila's world. seriously"

alhamdulillah, skrg hanya tinggal sedikit flu with shortness of breath serta batuk ngadengade.

alhamdulillah, doa orang sakit itu makbul, insyaAllah.

" Apabila engkau datang mengunjungi orang yang sakit maka mintalah agar dia mendoakan mu, kerana doanya (makbul) saperti doa para Malaikat." (HR. Ibnu Majah)

hee.

koolfever. subway kukis. casing BB.

alhamdulillah. tengok tu tengok. bertuah tak bertuah tu. untung sakitsakit besties2 yang baik hati nak jage.

kejadian 151211@1pagi:

deal dengan pakguard mohon keluar gate utk memburu 'cool fever'.

cuakcuak, mereka redah jgk pakguard.

oh dan beberapa jam sblm tu rumet yg berjalan ke danau belikan casing.

heehee bkn 1 tp duaaa tau.

kejadian 151211@10pagi:

rumet bawak n teman pegi health centre.

*stress dengan doc

Doc: Sister ur temperature is not that high...

Me: Ah yes, bcs its only high when im in class or at night. when im not moving around.

Doc: So do you need MC?

Me: Yes (For God's sake doctor, look at my face, ade nampak mcm berlakon keee? =.=)

kejadian 151211@0906pm:

twin: Twin~ ur room no berape eh?

Me: *mamai bgn tido* ermm D, err 1.5c.

twin: okay.

Me: why?

twin: nuthing. kwn nasyer pun duduk sane.

Me: oh alright :)

*few mins later*

knockknock

icanhazSubwayKukis :D :D :D

kejadiankejadian mendapat dose vit-A hee hee hee *senyum senyum #9sembilan giga watt*

say Alhamdulillah; verily after hardship, comes ease. :D

dah tau dah demam ni mesti dtg jgk. setiap tahun dari kecik, sebelum atau selepas birthday. nnt balik, nk request bubur ayam yg dah disebut berkalikalikali. :D

salam people. may today be a good day! ameen. ;)

satusatusatuduasatusatu

2011-12-11T20:04:00.012+08:00

111211. oneultrahapybuny-mode. biar hati dan kaki decide, terpegi ke klcc. hati terdetik, harap-harap harini akan jadi hari ultrahapy. hihi.

terjumpa dgn akakku syg, kak ruby yg sgt shahilashaifful mish.

terjumpa jgk dgn arashian; ~~akak~~ ija & ~~akak~~ syara. hehe.

lepas tu perkara ultrahebat jd, saya jumpa ultramannnn. *senyum sorg2 sampai telinga* ok ok, jumpe transformers jgk td; optimus prime & bumblebee.. tp.. mereka sampingan. cukup sekadar tahutahu sendiri. (cakap je malas nk type shahila. diam la incikhati, bkn sbb itu haha.)

pada suatu hari, buny sedang makan.

sesuatu terjadi. lantas, dgn bantuan ultraman,

buny henshin jd ultrany.

the end.

bes tak cite tu? haha. magic kan? :P ok sbnrnye skrg mcm nak kena segan sorgsorg. (shahilashaifful anda type ape sorg2 syok sendiri ni? org tak paham. biarla org tak paham, ini memory utk sendiri. haha.)

jangan taktahu baru2 ni tuan punya blog ni terkena virus ultraman. hah. ye ultraman. salah ke diumur ini ingin meminati ultraman? hah hah hah? tak perlu jawab. sila jgn jawab. hahahahahah.

"iloveultramanthewayultramanis. notjustthephysicaltheoutside;

ifellinlovewiththequalitieswithin"#9

konklusi; terimakasih Allah untuk hari ini. sy hapy :D

salam people :D

mukamintakmakanan?

2011-12-10T15:35:00.000+08:00

simple happiness i've encountered in the past few weeks. nak letak sini, nak ~~berlagak~~ buat kenangan. hee. i want to appreciate every single thing that is given to me. :)

@surauEcons.

SS: *pndg sorg sister lantas senyum garfield*

sister: nak kuih?

SS: heee xpe :D

@surauICT.

sejurus selepas terbgn dr tido dlm surau tersebut, kelihatan seorg ibu-yg-bekeje-keras-membersihkan-kwsn-ict sdg makan lunch kat tepi.

SS: *pndg ibu smbl senyum senyum*

ibu: adik nak mkn? meh la makan keropok

SS: hee xpe xpe.

ibu: makan makan.

- ulang 2line kat atas 3-4 kali.

SS: err ok lah, bismillah.

tajuk: melon milk

from: wani

to: shahilashaifful~~comel~~

waktu: breakfast

tajuk: roti tuna 2 keping

from: kak wan, akak rumet yg omey

to: penetap compartment Cd1.5

waktu: breakfast, dlm zombie-mode struggle utk midterm mgmnt.

tajuk: taufoofaa

from: wani

to: shahilashaiffulygtacing

waktu: senja lps pasar malam. demi memujuk shahilashaifful yg tacing sbb kena tinggal oleh kwn2 yg pegi jusco.

tajuk: sugus-gulagula-lama-tak-jumpa

from: puteri

to: ofcourse la shahila

waktu: database class. teehee. talian hayat mengurangkan kemengantukan melampau.

tajuk: susu jagung, bebola, rotihotdog

from: kak wan ♥

to: shahila

waktu: dinner. kak wan pegi pasar malam, kite dpt semua ni. hik hik.

ze picture speaks louder than words

sesungguhnye, shahilashaifful ni ada muka mcm muka mintak makanan ke? :P well alhamdulillah je lah. murah rezeki. ameen.

pd shahilashaifful tgn memberi itu lebih hapy dr tangan yg menerima. tp duakaliduakala terima, mmg sgt terharuuuu, sekotak tisu premier pun tak cukup nak tampung keterharuan. snif snif. ye sy ade hati yang kadar sensitiviti nye mengalahkan skrin sentuh ipad, iphone, ipod, dan yg sewaktu dengannye T_T

its the thought that counts you know :) it doesnt have to be something big. the fact that ur thinking of that someone, thinking for that certain someone, it is more than enough. //unless la kalau 'someone' tak reti appreciate taktau la kan. ppl are all different. mungkin dia appreciate cuma tak reti nk tunjuk kan. hee. sangka baik je//

appreciate; appreciate every single thing. before its too late, bcs the future is unknown to us. #falsampahshahilashaifful.

ね(ne)ｒｄ。

2011-12-10T14:19:00.007+08:00

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01100101011011000011111100100000 #9

好きです。凄く好き。

muehehe. nerd。

atasset

2011-12-05T00:31:00.005+08:00

sedikit je. *panggg* seketul.

no big deal pun.

aku benci kau shahila bila kau begitu sensitive mengalah kan sensitiviti ipad mahupun samsung galaxy tab. tp serious, lama tak mengeluarkan watermata. adekah sampai masa? nak keluarkan sikit demi mencuci mata boleh tak?

ikindawishsomeonecanlookinmyeyesandcouldtellimnotokayandgivemeahug.

ok geli lah. tu nak mengada je tu, sila abaikan jika terdapat org yg membaca. haha. dah dah la tu, takkemana pun. sila hapy. dah tukar lagu tu, tak payah nak dengar lagu buat tambah tacing.

shahilanimakhluksukatacingsbnrnyesilamenyampah.

hahaha. perlu ke nk tulis semua ni dalam blog. perlu kot. blog ini hati ke dua macamnye.

ok masa untuk menjadi cocoon datang lagi. assalam people. may we all be blessed by Allah throughout the night and also tomorrow onward.

xpe, hari esok ada. harapan: ia lebih baik dr hari ini.

xpe, hari ini ada jgk senyum, ada jgk gembira di sekitar waktu petang. #9

alhamdulillah.

eh kenapa la playlist ni tetibe nak main lagu #iftomorrownevercomes ni? T_T

uit hati, la tahzan. :)

randomhapyness :p

2011-12-04T00:48:00.005+08:00

shahilashaifful's random hapyness of the day. :D

ape yg hapy nye? ye sy tahu sy mmg sengal. haha. biarlah. :P

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-buny ;)

nomnomster

2011-12-02T19:04:00.004+08:00

*drag self*

*mengensot*

aaaaa. ihetchu pre-reg. oh uia server why you so kejam? anyway ignore that. penat la prereg walaupun duduk atas kerusi. rasa mcm krem jari refresh xberenti. dah siap prereg but uhmm, lari betul drpd plan asal haha. watever lah. as long as i can study.. i guess.

bila tensyen mula nak jadi nomnomster. i am a Nomnomster these days. shahilashaifful asyik lapar je. ye la sape suruh yongtaufoo tak de. dah tak wujud. mak cik cuti pegi mana makcik? sy lapar la makcik :'( bila tak dapat makanan yang diingini, makan la bape banyak benda lain tak kenyang punye.

snif snif. di kala tensyen macam ni, lagi lapar. lapar icecream. hehe. *pangg*

anywayyy..

mr.mufasa, pls be safe. miss you so badly. Allah, please grant him a safe journey. ameen. :)

god i miss mr.mufasa T_T

numbersOfTheDay;

64(3)7(8)5(2)7(4)9(3)46(2)4(2)284(3)86(3)#9

okayyy, later. assalamualaikum. :D

cekodokshahila ke bahulushahila?

2011-11-24T01:03:00.005+08:00

sedap tak bunyi status? harini teringin cekodok. happymealhour dgn atiq & wani makan cekodok. yongtaufoo boleh pulak tak ada. terpaksa la makan nasi ayam. wau. boleh tahan sedap lah, lapar nasi jgk akhirnye sbb tuhan je tau dah berapa lama last makan nasi :P

atiq mention pasal iceblended dkt KUIS. which triggered shahilashaifful utk cakap something lantas membawa kepada event yg terjadi pade hari ini.

SS: Eh teringin coolblog

W: HAAA jum JJ! Pinjam kete Tia.

A: Call la tiaaa.

SS: *call* Tia nak pinjam kete nak pegi JJ.

Note: Tia patut ade kelas. tapi diew pontenggg. tsk tsk tsk.

tup tap maka ke JJ dgn hati yg riang berbunga bunga. dengan penuh kesopanan dan kesusilaan. keinesenan dan ketidaktahuan nasib yg bakal menimpa. ecewah. puitis habis malam ni.

lepas tu dah belanja share mereka utk 20112011. selesai bab itu. tapi yg hmm hmmmmm *mengeluh panjang* sbnrnye sgt fishy. hehe mastermind!Atiq tak payah cakap lah acting beliau hampir awesome. tiada tanda-tanda mencurigakan. wani.. toilet belah kiri, die pegi belah kanan ke arah supermarket err. tia yang ulang2 cakap 'nak main basikal, x sabar'. pemergian mereka ke kedai runcit secare tetibe pun sgt mencurigakan. and dialog seperti 'mana ade kot kat kiosk' sgt mencurigakan. tp layankan saje.

sampai bilik solat dulu. pakai sweater. mereka berkata, 'xyah la pakai, relaxla, nk pakai semat2 nak pegi mane?' Mencurigakan. ShahilaShaifful dah dapat agak, lalu nyanyi lagu buatan sendiri:

'Old mcD had a farm eieio, and on his farm he had a fish eieio,

and theFISH FISH HERE & FISHY FISHY THERE

FISH HERE FISH THERE FISH EVERYWHERE.

bcs its fishy kan. tapi mereke tak perasan kot |D

lepas ituuu, pegi keluar mereka mcm bincang bincang. ok Mencurigakan. Buat taktahu lah. Mereka ajak pegi block paling hujung. Duduk atas rumput, main truth or dare. Errr okay mungkin pembulian menggunakan Truth or Dare sebagai medium akan berlaku. Lepas satu dua soalan.. PAPPPP! seketul telur berjaya hinggap di belakang ShahilaShaifful.

hmmmmmm. ITS WARRRRRR. memang mase tu, selipar ke tudung ke, semua apa yg boleh capai, tarik, baling; revengeeee. tapi 3 lawan 1. apekan daya seorang bunny ini. last-last redha je lah. duduk atas jalan raya mengenang nasib sambil kena balingan telur dan hamburan tepung. Berapa bijik telur cant remember. And 2 packet tepung kot. Its painfullll okayyy. Memang kena lumur dgn tepung and telur dgn sebati. Baju seluar tudung semua tak ada rupa dah. Nice, veryyy nice. Serious, kite bau macam bahulu. HAHAHA. Tinggal masuk oven je. |D

Lepas tu tak cukup lagi, kena simbah air pulak dkt dpn bilik. D: D: D:

Kepala dah teruk kena seketul telur. Haaaa serious la rase nak nangis. Striker!Wani sgt kejam dalam bidang ini, Rambut, Mata, Telinga semua masuk tepung. tsk tsk.

Lepas tu semua mandi secara berjemaah. heh heh :P Bersurai. Sambung comment2 dkt facebook.

Lihatlah duniaaaa:

BEFORE. shahilashaifful yg begitu inesen.

AFTER. ok mekap 'bahulu' dah tak nmpk sbb dah kena air.

bahulu!shahila, tia, atiq & wani.

oh yes ini toilet/shower btw. :P

benciiii aaaaa tapi sayanggg :)) *inner conflicts*

Dear BungaChamomile the sengalRumet,
Dear Emmawani the Striker
Dear NuratiqMoyaz the Mastermind,

For being with me, for the 2nd bday-bully-session, for the birthday celebrations, for being my ruqqy bestyfriends, i thank you girls. We have not known each other for so long, but who cares, masa itu hanya jam minit dan saat; numbers belaka. We can be bestestOfFriends even baru kenal bape saat pun kan. Serious ni: syg kat korg. W/o you girls i dont think i'll be able to survive here. Wouldnt have had great times here. Happy meal hour malam-malam, Sesi sengal2 dalam bilik, sesi pegi jalan same-same, share cecite same-same etcetc. No matter how sick I am of the schedule here at times, sbb korg ade, I can tell myself to hang on, sabar nnt balik bilik boleh jumpe korg. Seriously, this has gotta be the CRUELEST birthday celebration but seriously I love you girls to bits. Never had I had any birthday as awesome as this 21st birthday. Anyway, sebenarnya dah dapat agak plan anda anda midway, but kite diam je, bagi plan korg berjalan lancar, sbb kite syg korg muahaha. May Allah bless our Friendship. May it last till forever ends. Please continue to take care of me. *hug sorgsorg*

Sekian saje post kasihsygewweww shahilashaifful dipagihari. Peserta scrabble; GOOD LUCK! :D

Love,
ShahilaShaifful
24/11/11@0723am.

hee kali ini cukup 4 org! yeay. tapi tetap rasa macam sedikit pedih hati. its already 23rd/24th smlm pun kena lagi :P kalau korg guna tepung and telur tu buatkan cake ke cekodok ke bahulu ke sedap jgk kan. hahaha tapi dimaafkan lah, sbb haritu atiq x dapat join.

ohkey nak sambung baring2. class at 10! take care n be safe people.

salammmm :)

20112011

2011-11-21T02:09:00.004+08:00

b420112011:

JJ wangsamaju. Wani & Tia. Random window shopping. Coolblog & Sushi. Beli satu baju.

Balik naik kereta Tia. Laptop kena hijack, mereka tgk Al-hijab. Kena buli. Kena simbah air. Habis baju baru. Nasib sayang kalau tidak dah kena lempangan kasih syg shahilashaifful. Habis basah depan bilik, org lalu terpinga tengok jalan basah. Tensyen dgn kitorg? Maaf leww :P Main skipping rope. Lepas tu pengsan tidur ramairamai dlm bilik. Sayang atiq tak ade. hee nanti kena ada 44 baru best. :Db

ah, tidak boleh lupa event. First meeting dgn munter coklat.

1135+-@ruqqyb420112011; TYSv1 henshin! TYHv2.

20112011: #9

breakfast20112011: shahilashaifful mkn satu. domo makan dua? DUA? ;_;

11.59pm; 20112011 is about to end soon.

for letting me live to this day, i thank you Allah.

for letting me have so many wonderful people, i thank you Allah.

for letting me be shahilashaifful, i thank you Allah.

for letting me be ULTRA-lucky, i thank you Allah. #9

domo ate me??

muwahaha buli domo....

domo nampak mcm hantu kan?

To those who wished me, thank you so much. You guys and girls really made my day. This year's 20112011 gotta be the best birthday i had ever had :') Thank you Allah.

these girls too, special thanks to ze 3 of you. syg korg. ♥

ok dah ngantuk ni, byeeee. assalamualaikummm :DDDD

oh last but not least;

onehappybunny :') #9

notakakisebelahkanan: henshin itu maksudnya bertukar/transform ;)

sedangmenontonultraman

2011-11-11T11:37:00.005+08:00

alhamdulillah 111111, another good day. for letting me be alive till this day, thank you Allah :')

dah byk post tp semua masuk draft. pemalas betul la shahilashaifful ni. dah la post senyum je senang. senyum itu sedekah.

omeynyeee kannn? :'3

:D :D :D :D :D
:') :') :') :') :')

skrg shahilashaifful dpt virus suka senyum tak pasal2.

lalu je la tepi shahilashaifful insyaAllah dia senyum.

reply lah senyum. tacing bila senyum org buat muka 'ape masalah budak ni?' ._.

rasenye sampai muka tak boleh nak default balik dah.
structure muka macam dah berubah jd muka senyum terus.

bagus lah kan?

empattigakali. limatigakali. sembilantigakali.

duabelastambahlimebelastambahduapuluhtujuh.

limapuluhempat.

anda merapu ape ni shahila? *panggg*

aaaaaaaaaaa TAKNAK BALIK UIAAAA. tp nak balik uia. hehe :P

-buny

887777444644

2011-11-08T09:56:00.005+08:00

feels like writing but do not want to do so.

#shahilashaifful'sbeingrandomagain.

give thanks to Allah.

for another beautiful day.

hoping that things will go smoothly and nicely;

and last as long as forever.

ameen.

-buny.

srsly what kind of kyuuuteness is this? ;_;

awesome tree;

2011-11-02T22:32:00.007+08:00

makes me happy~

suki. :)

abcdefghijklmnopqrstvwxyz.

random buny. keke. dahdah la tu shahilashaifful gi study. ok baik. salam.

imnotokaybuti'llbeokay

2011-10-24T19:52:00.002+08:00

i am so lost lately. so many things to read to be done. but mind is just not there. cant focus.

truth is, i think i miss home. and also i think i miss kingmufasa. *sigh*

it has been too long. too long. and its gonna be longer. and longer. further and further.

to the point that it seems like i can no longer fix the gap.

i am always like this when the exams are getting nearer.

im happy but im sad. im sad but im happy;- contradiction.

right enough. smile. positive. make Doa. InsyaAllah the light will come again, darkness will go. shahilashaifful can do it. :')

la tahzan, innallah ha ma'na.

Fa inna ma'al 'usri yusra

Inna ma'al 'usri yusra

Verily, along with every hardship is relief.

Verily, along with every hardship is relief. (Surat Insyirah 5-6)

Pokok & Flower

2011-10-13T17:33:00.007+08:00

Fuh~ fuh~ penatnyee harini (tipu). Nanti la cerita dlm next post, kisah berkejar dari uia ke kptm. Kali ni tajuk pokok dan flower. :D

Harini shahilashaifful pakai serba hijau. heeejauu. :P Rasa feeling macam pokok pun ade. keke. Dengan kasut sneakers purple bertali double, hitam dan kelabu.

sedang makan roti fevret sweetie dapnye~ :3

Speaking of pokok..

Kat uia ni banyakkkk bunga yg kite sukeee tuuu :D :D :D

tengok tengok. omey je kannn? dari kecik kite suke bunga ni.. eh pokok? :'3

(rase mcm dah penah ckp je pasal bunga ni, ah peduli ape :P)

tp smpi skrg shahilashaifful tak tahu pun ape name bunga ni T^T. Ade sape-sape tahu tak? Selalu nak petik nk simpan tapi tahan ke. snif. And kesian jugak kat bunga ni. Kalau petik matila die. hehe. pencinta alam la kononnye kan :3

ambik gmbr ni masa jalan balik mahallah, org pandang je kenapa la budak ni tetibe amik gmbr longkang/rumput/jalan di bawah matahari yg terik? =.=

Ok tu je. babai.

p/s: arini amik jubah convo. tak comel gilaaaaa. hahaa |D

Panjat Gate (topikkecil :P)

2011-10-08T23:34:00.005+08:00

Ok selepas seminggu, first week yang betulbetul serabut dan hectic dkt uia, sangat la nak balik rumah. Nak recharge motivation bak kate shahilashaifful. Kite bukan la manje sgt pun homesick ke ape, but ye la Rumahku Chargerku. Lebih kurang. The 'HOME' punya feeling tu lain.

First time pegi cocu Fardhu Ain arini. Kul 10-12. Masuk KAED. Ok sesungguhnya by far rasenye Kuliyyah of Architecture ni la yg paling besar kite penah masuk kat uia tu. Elok-elok dah awal tetibe SESATT AAAAAAA. Otw tu jumpe sorg budak tanye 'Kenape macam kenal eh?'. Rupenye junior time sekolah rendah/hischool dulu. HAHA sesat la same2 sambil berjejak kasih :P Ade la 30mins sesat sampai naik tingkat mana tah. Of all places why KAED? srsly? =.=;

Punya la bersabar habiskan Fardhu Ain td. Class was good. The Sister yg ajar best, so nice, semua orang die panggil sweetheart, cair kite hati keras cam batu ni. keke. Habis je FA, cecepat call madam mama, dgn hati berbunga, terus layu bila:

SS: MAAA dah habis ni nak balikk, ma kat aneee?

MM: Mama gi kenduri dulu, tak sempat amik SS. Pas zuhr la kay.

SS: .. hmm kay..

tu je mampu nk jawab. aaaaaa saddd gile. tacing. Sebab lapar yg amat, kawan x de, terus pegi kiosk beli maggi perisa vegetable mamee (perlu la nk tulis perisa ape :P). Makan. Sempat la abis kan Rio & Megaminds.

ohkey ni ajaran shahilashaifful: tacing2 makan megi :P

Baru madam mama datang. Tak fikir dah nak tacing bila dah masuk kereta, tapi tacing balik bila:

MM: esok pas asar kau blk la blk eh, mama ade urusan.

SS: .. hmm kayyy..

=_____________________________= ade serupa tak yah balik tak? hahaa. baik duk je bertapa kat uia tu tacing tacing.

Kembali bersmgt bila teringat janji dengan besties yg dirindui nak jumpe kat TF. hee.

MiraeYusoff & ZafirahSara.

Keluarkan segala cerita yg terpendam, terpospon, tersemuater. Gossips habis semua. Ambik gambar habis semua. Rutin biasa la.

Mirae Yusoff skrg dah jadi tokey tudung fiwitt. Nak beli la sapot besfren kan. Ok cannot go gila:

SS: Mane kau dpt stocks?

MY: Ade la..

SS: =.= foineee bak kate MY sendiri. haha.

kitorg omeyyy ~~kan kan kan~~ takkk? :D :D :D

TuttiFrutti SELESAIII ngaum! :Db

muka hepi penuh burger :P eh ke pipi mmg cemtu eh =.=

Sebelum balik shahilashaifful kate lapar. Sebab last makan tgh hari, makan maggi tacing tacing. haha. So MY bawak makan burger. Dah lameeee teringin nk makan burger X3 nyum~ puas hati. Kenyangla ni utk beberapa hari (hope so :P) hehe.

*edit*

OH LUPEE. Madam mama call td:

MM: SS, ade bawak kunci tak?

SS: Adeeee *confident*

Sampai rumah tadi..

SS: ALAMAK wehhh kunci mmg ade kunci gate tak deeee.

MY: HAAA? Dah tu?

SS: Ala, panjat je la kot gate.. *ktangktangktang* WALLA~ hahahahahahaha hebatnye aku. (padahal gate rendah je pun |D)

MY: WAAA *snap gmbr* ala lambat.

SS: tak yah nak sabotaj :P byeee

*masuk rumah*

SS: laaaa mama ade kat hall, SS panjat gate kot td. hahahaha :P

Sengal ok double triple sengal. HAHA nasib baik x de pak guard ke ape lalu. Memang harus kene sesi soaljawab ke ape mmg buat segan 800 tahun la kan. Kene tangkap panjat gate rumah sendiri.

Ok tu je, xde ape yg menarik pun nak update. Tapi nak tulis jgk. haha. Ok malam semua, Assalam.

God pleaseeee bg saye rajin sikit. Nak study utk quiz kalau boleh malam ni, sikit pun jadi la. 3 chapters je ponnn. apela malas sgt shahila ni. *pangpangkirikanan*

C++ : C(S)engal PLUS PLUS.

2011-10-05T11:20:00.006+08:00

Salam dearest readers. How are you guys & girls today? Fine? If yes then Alhamdulillah, if not pun Alhamdulillah jugak kan. Ujian itu pun satu nikmat. And may we be blessed with another tomorrow which is I hope better than today! (ecewah ni penutup ceramah mana pulak ni, start cite pun belum lg ha. nak masuk ustajah pilihan ke shahila oiii :P)

Bila dah stress kena paksa diri fikir cara Islamic pulak. Or else I am sureee I am gonna be lost in my own fear, stress and what not.

Anyway harini dilemma. Nak pilih tajuk post ini bukan mudah. Antara calon-calon terpilih:

a) Budak Terlebih Rajin Pegi Kelas Cancel.

b) Mamai Virus Berbahaya

c) Moody Shahila is coming.

d) Overtaken by Moody Shahila

e) Heartsicko

and the list goes on.

Banyak benda bermain lari lari anak di dalam akal fikiran. Itu yg calon-calon nama post pun semua stock emosyenel je. tsk tsk. Sungguh tidak best.

Tadi pagi bangun. Tak tahu mengapa, rase sungguh tidak betul. Something is not right. Something is so wrong. Dengan mood yang di bawah paras negative-moody, pergi menguruskan diri. Siap dengan pantas. Pergi kelas laju-laju. Sampai EDU, lari anak naik tangga tak mahu lambat. Masuk kelas: WAUUU RAMAINYE ORANGGG - taklangsung. Check notes: 'No class on next Wed (which is today)'. Serious time tu rase nk nangis tensyen ade, nangis gembira ade.

Budak malas study. I repeat, STUDYYY fiwiittt gile tak?.

Ikut hati nk laju-laju balik mahallah. Tapi terkenang janji yang akan berlangsung after 2hours, nak study dgn sorg kawan, Shu. Duduk je la sbb bawak buku database nk study la pahamkan benda yg tak paham lgsg dlm kelas smlm sbb computer-lab-kite-rosak-so-duduk-termenung-kat-blkg-tak-dpt-seat-dpn-sbb-lambat-sbb-larilari-dari-kelas-lain-kat-hujung-uia. Tapiii.. nasib baik ade tab xla bosan sgt. (my new love samsunggalaxytab7 keke, nk bg name ape eh kat tab ni? weee). Tapiii harusla 1jam15minit semua dekat tab/fb/twitter je. BAHAHA. Bace database nye ciput je. Tapi ok la kan ade la gak hasil kan? :P

Dah sicko sgt ni. Mengenangkan xleh balik jumaat. Leh balik ptg sabtu je :( Lagi hati rasa memberontak dan exhausted. Tambahan lagi banyak benda sedang bermain di dalam kepala. Tak suruh fikir tapi mmg auto nak wat acane kan. Tahan je la. That is shahilashaifful X3;;

Look, something random I found in FB, ow was it tmblr? :P

YEAHH WHAT THE FISH?! bahaha :))

*me wants go home* *me wants klcc* *me wants spend time with friends*

And then bila dah jumpe dengan shu pegi beli buku jap. Pegi beli buku, shu jumpe novels. (Tak bes gile, novel english semua pelik pelik dan lama lama. Novel cinta melayu la byk hmmm) Haaa sungguh paham la kan kalau org yg suke buku dah jumpe buku macam mane. Terus cancel kan study. BAHAHA. I dont mind. Orang malas memang mcm ni. :P *slaps self 800x*

So now im back in my compartment sweet compartment. heh heh. So nice ♥ Ok tak nice. Lepas breakfast td rase menyesal makan. I dont feel good actually =.= Nak tido. Looks like its gonna rain. Class ptg ni ade satu je, Arab YANG TAK ADE CREDIT HOUR. paham tak? Rase macam tak nak pegi. :)) //jenguk luar tingkap// Uuu dark.. *is secretly happy*

Oh on the brighter side, semalam kite dapat result quiz yg tetibe kene buat mase masuk first time dalam klas dah la dah miss berchapter chapter!!. Hari tu buat memang tawakal habis. Guna je ape perkataaan or ideas yg terlintas. Walau dah ade basic mase zaman Diploma dulu kan, mana nak igt pasal definition semua ni lepas setahun dah tinggal betul tak? Tapi guess what, ALHAMDULILLAH I SCORED FULL MARKS. ALHAMDULILLAH dear ALLAH :3

HORAA MITEEE~ Looooook. Ok tak de la bangge ape pun. Memang igt dah tak dpt markah lgsg sbb betul bantai. tulisan pun buruk je sebab rase cam ahh mesti xdpt markah sbb bantai je SNIF :( I guess as long as we put effort in something, even if its as little as particles, Allah knows and insyaAllah He'll help. :D

And one more random thing, Captain-san uploaded this picture this morning. HAHAHA. Zaman diploma, lepas presentation Bisnes. Belanje cake dekat KFC JuscoMaluri sempena birthday ShahilaShaifful. Ok rinduuuu tau zaman ni X3 Eventho I am not that close to my classmates - (sbb kite ni kan Tunggul yg Sedih XD;;) - I guess I am still happy to be apart of CSOM :)

Tadi nak bebel pasal emosyenel stuffs tp macam berat dan makin meragam pulak kepala dan tak sedap tekak. Better rest. Tp sbb tak leh tido, self study dulu, rase macam gerenti tido. Rase tak sedap tekak dan kepala. Dah berjangkit sakit ke ape lak ni. iskkk. T^T

Anyway, before I end this entry. Self-reminder for me & also my brothers & sisters out there:

Turn each anxiety, each fear and each concern into a Dua (supplication). Look at it as another reason to submit to God and be in Sajdah (prostration), during which you are closest to Allah. God listens and already knows what is in your heart, but He wants you to ask Him for what you want. The Prophet said: Allah is angry with those who do not ask Him for anything (Tirmidhi).

Its Bloody Monday

2011-10-03T22:50:00.004+08:00

Bloody Monday bukan "Buraddi Mandei" manga/drama Jepun tu tau. haha. Telah digelarkan oleh shahilashaifful bahawasanya Isnin ish Bloody Monday sebab suppaaa hectic man. *pengsan berasap asap*

YAYYY! Syabas shahila. Sungguh kagum dengan diri sendiri yang begitu rajin pegi kelas dr:

discreetmaths: 8am-10am

studygroup: 10am-12pm

arab: 2pm-4pm

tuto1: 5pm-7pm

tuto2: 8pm-10pm (ok tak, delay habis kul 10.30 =.= *berkira*)

HAAA caye tak caye tak? Orang paling pemalas dalam dunia ikut jadual macam tu. Ni baru cikit je subject kite amik ni. haaa. *pengsan*

Ape eh nak cite harini. Banyak sebenarnye. Tapiii setiap kali dapat ilham je harus la dalam kelas. Plus laptop x bawak. snif snif.

/tolak tolak maneki neko sambil senyum sorang sorang gila creepy :D :D/

#01: Basikal.

OH YES OH YES. Cakap pasal senyum kann, hahaha. Harini pegi kelas petang tukar daripada baju kurung ke Baju & seluar sebab ape? Sebab kite dah bawak basikal la. heehee. Pegi kelas dgn begitu ohsem, sejuk dan nyaman walau berade kat bawah matahari yg terik pukul 1.45pm. keke. Senyum lebar 8 meter pun ade kot. teehee. Alhamdulillah xyah dah ajak orang bawak pegi taman botani ke ape tacing tak de orang nak bawak la ape. Dah ade basikal sendiri.

Tapi kannnnnnn bahayaaaa laaa.

quoted from fb status:

"bukan je sense of direction shahilashaifful ni dahsyat. balance pun xbetul. =.= bila ade kereta boleh lak lean kearah kereta. ade longkang, jalan ke arah longkang. bagaikan ketam jln senget |D bahayalaaaa *slaps self*"

aa mmg rase literally nak lempang diri sendiri betul betul. Bahaya betul tadi. haha ade ke kayuh ke arah kereta. Nasib kete tak laju kan kat kawasan mahallah2. Hnn. Shahila sila baiki sistem anda. tqvm. Nanti kene buat kelas basikal pulak la camni :P Ye la ni madam mama la ni takut-takut kan kiteee ;_; "Betul ke kau reti bwk basikal? Sejak bila?". Sniff. Sejak kecik laaa tapi dah brape tahun kot tak ade basikal kann ;_;

Alaah lupe lak nak amik gambar basikal girlish ew ew tu :P Nanti la esok upload sini. keke.

#02: Nasi Goreng Babaya?Pattaya?

Dalam kelas arab. First class lepas 3minggu? =.= Harus la tak paham ape ape. Sir tu pulak bila dah syok sendiri die bebel arab je. AHAHA. Terbaik. Acane kite ni nak belajaaa sirrr? /_\ Aaa nak drop nak drop. Tapi syg. Tapi nak dropppp. haha.

Sir: What do you eat for lunch today students?

Sir: Nasi goreng? Nasi Campur? Nasi Kampung? Nasi Goreng...

Class: Pattayaa?

Sir: Nasi Goreng Babaya.

Class: HAAAAAAHAHAHAHA BABAYA. Its Pattaya no Babaya.

Sir: When do you say Syukur?

Students: After waking up, After eat, EVERYTIMEE.

Student: AFTER CLASS.

Students: HAHAHAA :))

Sir: So students, we do not only say Alhamdulillah during good times. During sick, you get rewards by saying Alhamdulillah

Sir: Not 'Oh today my relative just passed away so I cannot say Alhamdulillah'

Sir: So what do we say when a relative or someone pass away?

Students: Alhamdulilla...h?

*buynyi cengkerik*

Sir: Its Innalillahi wa innailaihi rajiun :P

Students: :))

#03: TutoClass Database.

Cool gile tak brother ni.

Bro: I dont mind you guys coming late. As long as you come. Be it 30mins late, 1 hour late or even 1 and 1/2 hour late.

Bro: Also if you feel bored you can say 'Brother im bored, I want to go out for tea or anything'. Sure, it is no use to keep you here when you cannot focus.

ngaa. Gile cool kan. Melampau pun ade :)) Tapi sumpah mengantuk la td sbb DB bahagian theory. Dah petang pulak kan. Limit betul =.=

#04: Nasib baik ade background C++

Berjasa la gak subject yg paling dibenci dulu. heh heh.

Wuyoo belajar balik from scratch tuuu. Hebat tak hebat tak? |D Ok tak hebat pun. Ni basic je. Tak masuk functions bagai. IHETCHUUU kalau dah masuk parameters & relate ngn Database bagai. Harap kali ni ade kemajuan lah tapi :3

- Tiada benci hanya suki. ecewah *geli*

Okayyy. Kaki rase krem. Dah tak fit nak naik basikal kat jalan bukit2 mcm zaman kanak-kanak. Mama hantar nasi lemak td. Ada lagi tp dah lambat macam ni nk makan dengan penat serabut semua rase x larat pulak x de mood dan tak sedap perut dah ;_; *sedih*

Nak sambung nyauproject lah. Melukis lagiiii macam smlm hahaha. Ok semua orang sila tido baik baik. Mimpi indah indah. Salam.

Meowth

2011-10-02T20:44:00.003+08:00

sniffffff.......... HAAAAAAAAA. Kena tarik nafas panjang-panjang. Menenangkan diri yang sungguh keberatan untuk pulang dekat bilik D1.5. *pang kiri kanan* Ok ok tak. Hepi gile balik sini. Gila. haha Gila. #sarcasm.

Anyway. Baru sampai (baru la sgt :P). Around pukul 8 tadi, balik ngn madi. Harini girls day out dkt Curve. Had a great time with the sisters: Akak Ija, Akak Syu, Akak Madi. bahaha. ok kene lempang nanti. With Ija, Syusyu & Madi hee. :P

Sedikit sedih tapi. Sebab wiken ni x de spend quality time kat rumah pun. KELUARRR je la, teman mama and duduk bilik buat notes. Ahad, jalan gi curve n now back in second home. snif snif snif T_________T

Oh tapi hepiii. hihi. Kite dah dapat maneki nekoooo (neko = kucing). NYOMELLL kannn? *mata bersinar sinar*. Dah lame sgt nak. Lg bessss sbb die tumbling neko. Pusing pusing gerak gerak bila kite tolak. Omeyyy sgt. hik hik.

Harus la kan tak buat keje sbb balik balik tolak tolak tengok die pusing2. Leka. =.=;

Tapi omeyyy. hahaha. *tolak tolak neko* //pang terbalik// ok die tak stable sgt lupa nk check keadaan die before beli td T^T

Pastu pastu jalan pegi Borders ade manga Neko Ramen :)) COMEL GILA TAKKK. geram nyeee. Tapi x de la beli pun. ahaha. Dah ce try lukisss gmbr kucing di atas dlm sketch book ♥ yeay yeay tambah collection kucing. ^^

Pegi pulak Daiso. Everything rm5. Memangg rase nak gila bila jumpe barang2 dari Jpn yg sgt omeyomey. Macam mangkuk kat bawah ni. Haritu baru beli so kite tak beli laaa mcm membazir. Tapi nakkk T___________________T

*nyesal tak beli* Tapi ade gambar pun jadi la. hehe

Susah betul la shahilashaifful ni. Pantang nampak benda yg comel kan semua die nak, pantang!

KUCINGSSSS more more moreee ♥ ♥ ♥

Suke nyeee kucing. Haih bila la nk boleh ade kucing lg. Sampai tua la ni kot xde kucing lg. snif. Sedih nak tacing sorang-sorang jauh-jauh. =.=

Ok dah stop tak payah nak tacing. Hm hm, ok jap lagi tulis nota. //haa ye la tu, jap lagi kang pengsan terus//

Esok kelas sampai 10malam. Sebab ade tutorial. Sila pengsan dgn sy. yay.

//haa bosannye post ni :P// Peduli ape. Asalkan boleh type. hoho.

Sila sila :D

2011-09-30T23:12:00.004+08:00

Salam. Jemput la membace kat blog merapu ini. Buat macam rumah sendiri ye. ^^

*segan lantas melarikan diri sejauh yang mungkin*

p/s: ok motif post ni? lalala, xde motif :P

tp jike anda paham motif post ini sila angkat tangan :P

300911. 1123pm.

Shoooot I'm Lateeee

2011-09-29T11:42:00.004+08:00

BAHAHA. Padan mukeeee Shahilaaa. Serves you right! Told ya not to re-sleep after you woke upp. //But but i was just trying to read notess// Yeah right, its more like staring at the wall then twitter, then facebook, few sec on notes, back to facebook, twitter, wall staring. tsk tsk.

*kicks self*

I seriously hope its not gonna happen again =.= Nasib baik ShahilaShaifful kalau siap kalah superman :P

Pagi lepas subuh konon nak bace Database nye notes. Sebab dah jauh tinggal kannn. ecewah rajin wiwit. haha. Pastu makin lama makin berat mata, berat kepala. Syaitonnnn berani kau mengacau anak pakcik Shaifful ni? SYUHHHH. =.= Dah abis bace slides untuk 2 chapters yang penuh dgn definitions and whatnots.

//Sekejapppp je. Sewious.

*throw self on bed* ZZZZ.

*woke up and looked at the clock - still early. ZZZZ.

*woke up and AHHHHHHH ITS 9.15 DEMITTT.

zupzapzupzap. SIAP.

bahaha. PHEW sempat. Datang awal jgk dari sir. :P But rushing things = so not my style. I like to do things on my own pace. Slowly but surely. fufu.

Anyway.

Shahila: Hai 'cin' and 'cout'. Kite jumpe lagi. Saye benci awak cincurut tsk. hikhik. mata yoroshikuu. Harap kali ni kite jadi kawan baik okey?

//bercakapdgnC++.

Tadi dalam class, since I've got some uhh picture on how C++ works, its kinda fun ^^ And Sir pun suke explain panjang2 more than our need. Kekadang nak explain pasal character bytes leh masuk masak character asing macam tulisan Korea. //i guess he worked in Korea before this. which is cool//. Nak tangkap accent beliau mmg susah sikit but i think i'll get used to it sooner or later. hoho.

tsk! this is SOTRUE especially for today. Class td from 1000-1120. Rase cam da lame, tengok jam aii baru gerak 5 minit |D tsk tsk. Tadi tido tu rase kejap je tetibe da lambat bgn. Terbaik.

Sir: Please tick attendance. I dont like wasting time with attendence but today I can see some ppl are not around. Please tick, just tick. No signatures, cows, no artistic stuffs needed. It happened during the last semester ya know.

keke comel je. Cows huh. If its me its gonna be cat or a bunny! :P

Ok xde motif. Sekejap lagi kui 2 kelas petang pulak from 2pm to 5pm. One more class 'first day' nak kena lalu then im good ^^ Kene la rajin kan diri cari satu dua mangsa cakap 'Hai awak, kite Dayang, awak?' ew ew. Management class ptg ni i bet diorang dah jauhhh belajar. Allah pls help me pleaseee pleaseeeee pleaseeeeeeeee :'3

Alrighty, dah cukup tulis untuk sekarang. Salamm people. May today be a goooooood day for all of us. Ameeeennn :)

p/s: DEMMMM BUKAN TADI KATE NAK BACE NOTES KE? WHY ARE YOU WRITING HEREEE? *slaps self*

Kalau la Shahila Boleh Teleport

2011-09-27T12:06:00.005+08:00

Accio BROOM!

WingardiumLeviousaa-to-self (however its spelled |D)

Diagon Alleyyy *sprinkle floo powder and poof!* (ok buat ape pegi Diagon Alley)

these stuffs could be reallyyyy helpfull kalau nak larik dari Econs ke Edu Edu ke Econ dalam mase 10 minit seriouslyyy! ok dah takyah nak merapu sgt Shahila.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahimmm. Assalamualaikum. (ecewah tetibe je kan macam baik gile an :P)

Kelas dah start. Kesesatan pun dah start. tsk tsk. Sungguh menyedihkan. There are so many catching ups to do. Orang dah belajar jawuhhh, Shahila baru masuk kelas semalam. Mmm sedih kan kan kan? haahaa. /_\

hati riang jalan sejuksejuk pegi class pagipagi.

hati senang jalan balik dari kelas panaspanas. :3

i like walking so its not a problem. but i just dont like rushing here and there. X3

Semalam pagipagi dah gerak pegi Econs nak mintak consent DepDean dptkan satu lagi kelas untuk cukup kan credit hour. Banyak benda macam Tilawah xleh amik sebab dah penuh. Nanti la consider short sem. Arab pun ptg ni baru nak pegi try tengok patut drop or teruskan since orang dah belajar jauh kan. Cocurriculum sabtu adoila. Tu pun tak jumpe lagi tempat untuk bertanya. How laaa Shahila?!

Anywayyys, semalam first class masuk kelas Elements of Programming. Ok hai C++ yang dibenci suatu ketika dahulu sampai sekarang, kite jumpe lagiii. Eeeyer, kenape awak tak reti nak tinggalkan kite ni? :P TERBAIK: masuk kelas lecturer kate 'owkey, for ze laz 20minutes we'll hv a 2 questions quiz'. Apelah nasib diriku yang malang, Oh Tuhann~ :)) mmg rase shotcircuit jap kat kepala mase tu. Ahh bantaikan. Sebaik la its definitions je. Dah belajar dulu cuma lupa, xpe bantai je kot2 dpt sikit markah drpd 10 markah kan.

Pastu petang berkejar berpanas jalan pegi lagi EDU untuk kelas Database Systems. Masuk je rase nak nangis sebab haram tak paham pa pun. Dah jauh chapter 5. And its Oracleeee demittt. Bukan Database mySQL ke MicAccess ke. ORACLEEE KOTTT. =.= Oh Allah. *pengsan 8 minit*

Subject yang paling looking forward nk belajar Discrete Maths, harini (baru balik ni la). Tapi ya Allah, cabaran. Diorang dah belajar jauh. Dah berapa tahun tinggal DM. Mana nak ingat! Susah nak paham pulak lecturer foreigner tersebut ajar. Acane nii? *scratches head* fuufuiu Nanti balik kena amik jugak notes lama. Nanti kena self study. Hmm nangis kang. haha.

Kelas sebab ambik je mana yang available kan, so section bersepah-sepah. Lain kelas lain kawan. Saddd. Nak lalu 'first day/time' in class tuu memang rase nak gugur jantung. Rase nak nangis sungguh. Tapi kuatkan jgk, kalau tak memang tak kemana la Dayang Shahila ni. Penakut lebih. Kelas x banyak tp jarak antara subjects tu cam sikit. 10 minutes pastu kena lari dr hujung uia ni ke hujung uia lg satu. Hebat kan kan? ;_; Mahallah da la xboleh nak jauh lg. haha. Dah jgn complaint bykbyk Shahila. Ape Allah dah bagi tu, tetaplah yg terbaik untuk anda. ngeh. Thanks to fnachan yg sentiasa bg a push in the back, nasihat and also advices yg bg *pang* sikit dkt kepala ni utk bergerak maju ke hadapan instead of duduk satu tempat tak de kemajuan akibat keseganan dan ketakutan haha.

But anyway, tempat ni selesa. It feels like home. So xkisah sgt. Its just that im still alone. So its making me feel... mmm ntah susah nak describe |D I am the so called 'makhluk bersendirian'. Self proclaimed 'si tunggul yang sedih'. BAHAHA. Tapi sendiri sendiri pun tunggul tunggul pun mesti la nak ade teman gak kan. :3

Nasib baik:

ade rumet sengal macam Thieya. keke. ♥

kawan baik madam mama ni bahaha.

Pelik tak pelik ade kitew peduli?

jubah plus nike maxair ngeh. selesa yg penting!

tapi pakai macam ni dgn jubah je la kan ahaha.

cik kak cik kak arab leh buat kenape kitew x boleh lala.

Apesal sume kuning? *random*
ntah, kitew pun taktau mana dtg virus warna kuning nih :P

asal comei je harus la nk jadikan collection tsk tsk.

Ok sekian dulu report untuk kali ni. Nak redah cuaca panas terik pegi kelas. May today be a good day for everyone, AMEEN :D

Oh Mama XD

2011-09-27T00:20:00.003+08:00

Kite dengan madam mama kite memang la macam anjing dengan kucing kadang. Suka sgt gegaduh. Mase kecik nak side dengan ayah je. Bagi mama kalah. BAHAHAHA. gila kejam kan.

Dah besar ni lain la sikit. Bila gaduh diam je. Tak sampai hati la nak sakitkan hati madam mama. Masuk U ni, rasa sedih hati sebenarnya. Mama pun tak ada duit sgt, nk beli byk barang. Maka kite amik barang-barang yg available kat rumah. Tapi harusla ada yang masih perlu ditambah beli, banyak jugak duit habis. tsk.

Ok tak nak la emo kan. hee post ni nak cerita kite rase 'Oh mama ni ade jugak side comel beliau' XDD. Anaknye ini suatu masa dahulu seorang perosak bahasa terhandal. Banyak falsampah dikeluarkan. Tak sangka pulak mama pun same lebih kurang dua kali lapan. :))

peribahasaperibahasa buatan mama:

Mama: Alang-alang menyeluk perkasam biar sampai ke dasar!
SS: hah? mama ni suka hati je tukar sampai lengan la! XDDD
Mama: hah? Ye ke. ala same je la tu :P

Mama: Tepuk tangan tanya selera!
SS: tangan?
Mama&SS: HAHAHAHA silap dada la dada.

Duadua disebut dgn penuh keyakinan. Comel gila kan? :))

Bila fikir balik la kan. The monsters & I should never take madam mama for granted. srsly. She's indeed an OHSEM mom you know. Mama hebat dalam bidang masakan. Mama boleh baiki paip sendiri (AHAHA). Mama sgt kuat. Mama terer buat kuih. Mama pembersih tahap super. Dah macam supermak la kire. Hebat kannn? Dan Mama jugak la hairstylist saye sbb mase mudamuda beliau keje jadi hairstylist. keke xyah kitew pegi saloon nak gunting rambut. Bes kan?

Thanks ma. Tak yah tunggu mothersday la nk buat sappy post mcm ni kan. Setiap hari pun boleh. Ni first time la kot dalam hidup. Da duduk luar rumah baru reti nak ckp semua ni. But prolly mama tak tau pun sbb die tak online dan tak tau blog ni (kot). GAHAHAhaha!

Ada azam something, utk madam mama n her twin my ayang not forgetting ayah n umm monsters la jgk.., ehem, kerana Allah. tapi malas nk tulis sini. takut tak jadi ke ape kan. Let the action speaks louder than my words! insyaAllah.

mase pegi dating beli barang U hihi ♥

Hidup Tak Bosan Bila

2011-09-25T23:54:00.005+08:00

Bila ada besties yg sengal.

Kami jarang jumpa. Kami jarang share cerita. Tapi kami Sahabats. ngee.

Dari sekolah samesame. Membesar samesame. Masa berpisah lepas PMR nangis samesame. Bengkak mata samesame. Gaduh samesame. Jadi Pengawas pun samesame. Main air kat sekolah pun samesame (thinner bahaha nightmare gile). Tusyen samesame. Masuk-kelas-tusyen-lambat-makan-cekelet-kat-tangga-tusyen-sampai-cikgu-marah samesame. Crush dengan abang senior cina muka macam wonbin kononnya (betul oh) samesame. Kene marah dengan abang senior cina samesame, tak kite tak kene BAHAHA.

Eh sume la samesame. :P

intro tak boleh nak comel lg by MY:

katakata yang jarang (atau macam tak pernah?) dilepaskan, telah dilepaskan oleh FAA:

Cik ZafirahSara yang tak kisah kitew pgl die Zirafah/Japiwah ckp die syg kite:

hehehe bes kan? :P Korang ade bespreng sengal macam diorang? Ade? ok foiiine (bak kate MY) :P

btw smlm sebelum tido ade kejadian sengal dgn MY & ZS tp xleh cite kat sini bahaha tgk la in few years bila agak dah selamat tulis sini. keke :P

Omey Tak Kitew?

2011-09-25T22:40:00.006+08:00

Ok tak comel pun. haha. Tajuk tu tak de idea pun. (eleh konon macam harap ade orang comment 'eh mane ade tak comel, comel la awak ni.' ew ew.) XD Ok takde rase or niat nak orang puji pun. Hanye ingin merekodkan kadar kesengalan yang telah terjadi supaya in future nnt boleh rujuk balik :P

Suruh kawan-baru-mahallah-sama, Wani, tolong snapkan gambar. Dah la baru kenal, gila tak malu kan shahila ni. ew ew.

Ni dah comot ni, dah penat menjelajah U seharian. keke.

ini style saye: SIMPLE

dan: OMEY. (noktah. BAHAHAHA)

ade rupe pelajar contoh tak? (takgile).

*Oh ini style baru sikit. Tudung ada bunga. Tak putih atau hitam je. Atas request madam mama.

Ok cukup. Takyah tengok benda tak comel diatas. Tengok bawah niiiiii:

PANDACOMELGILAKANNNNN? T________T Panda ade eyebag hitam yg sgt hebat dan maha dahsyat, tapi comey je. Kite ni ade eyebag dah nampak macam ape je =.=; TIDAK ADIL! *bricked*

Ok, assalamua'laikum semua. Nak tido (tipu)

I've Been Kissed

2011-09-22T21:33:00.004+08:00

Mom taught few kids mengaji beberapa kali dalam seminggu (ayang punya customer punya anak-anak). The kids are all.. well you can say vvip punya anak-anak. One thing i like about them is that they're very very very loving, well disciplined X3

Sebelum dihantar balik Gombak tadi, mama pegi mengajar, ikut. Honestly, I am not really good with kids. But this cute lil guy is different. Hee~ it is impossible to ignore him. VERYVERYSWEET its dangerous, it hurts, it gave me toothache keke /gila exaggerate/

it caught me by surprise. srsly.

double kisses by Z;

oh God, this kid is the adorable-est 2 years old in this whole wide world like

S.E.R.I.O.U.S.L.Y. So loving so cute. XD

We played with Smurfs figure togetha. Budak kecik ni tau cakap English je. haha. Terpaksa la jugak speaking kan. Its kinda awkward at first.

me: Do you like Smurfs? Have you watched the movie?

Z: yeah, with mommy. at cinema.

me: aww *squishes*

after few hours of playing together..

Z: *pokes my cheek*

me: hey what're you doing? heehee ur kyutteee X3

Z: *pokes* no ur cute

me: *pokes back* ur the cute one!

Z: no youuu *pokes pokes pokes kiss*

me: ♥ w ♥

me: i bet he's gonna be a lady killer in za fyucha! 8D

KYAHAHA. comelgilagilagilagila kannnn? sooo soooo adorablee! X3 Selalu kids are afraid of me sebab muka serious je. But Z is different. hee~ terharu snifsnif.

and before pulang..

me: Z, i need to go back to school. We'll play again some other time okay?

Z: i wanna follow. come back here.

me: double awww *squishhhh*

blergh, im so bored i could faint D:

rumet balik rumah. takde kawan.

goodluck me utk tilawah esok. harap pass. walau macam takkan exempted, mana tahu kan, tawakal dkt Allah. bg la aku yg terbaik wahai Allah, ameen :)

Awak dan Saye

2011-09-20T23:18:00.004+08:00

Kat sini tak boleh nak mengada lagi guna 'kite' dengan 'awak'. omey tak? :P hahaha saje cambes pulak guna kiteawak kan instead of akukau. /random/

Sebab bosan, post jd makin kerap. Terkontang-kanting tak ada benda nak buat dalam UIA ni. Buat upacara bonding dgn jiran-jiran. Makin tahu mana budak so-called 'Case e-Rayuan' (gile kejam tak name yang diberi snifsnif) yg duduk Mahallah Ruqayyah.

Kan dah cakap Shahila. Ada hikmah. Allah bg kau mahallah ni. Ade budak ICT sama! Walaupun beliau cam tak nak jew kawan ngan kitew :'( Ok sbb die pendiam ehehe.

jumpe dah Kuliyyah of ICT heh heh.

ShahilaShaifful mmg sedikit hipokritos kat sini. Bercaaaakappp je selagi boleh cakap. /dah kate nak berlakon kan/ .Siap kidnap jiran bawak masuk bilik :P Mentang la daftar time tu sebelah2. Dapat bilik pun sebelah. Sayang course tak same kan Atiq kan? /name beliau nurul atikah. disuruh pgl nurul. tanye blh tak panggil atikah senang sikit sbb kite ni tak reti sebut R sgt. katenye kat kolej lame Atiq. nak panggil Atiq lah :P/ . Gila mengada. Tersedak beliau disebut-sebut kat sini |D

cari cari jalan ke CAC la mende la. sesat. XD

itu Farah & err tak igt name :P

Today ade 2 je activities. 1, English Placement Test. 2, Arab Placement Test. Dah la tadi masuk lambat utk EPT. :'( Sebab takde briefing dr UIA la niiii. Dah sampai situ baru cakap, those without offer letter cannot enter the exam. syeesh. Nak balik mahallah? Memang tidok sangat =.=; Allah mudahkan la, terbawak pendrive with the offer letter inside ett. Pegi print. Terkontang-kanting lagi. Cuit satu orang sister, mintak bantuan. Settle. Fuh!

nasyer's and madi's mahallah. gila tinggi tak? cungap den. memerlukan stamina! |D

Tadi break before APT.. gi melawat twin, Nasyer kat Nusaibah. hoho. Mendaki tangga yang tingggiiiii macam gunung Everest. Kalau jatuh memang err sayonara la kot. Dapat makan roti due keping ngan peanut butter free. hehe. Gerak awal sbb takut sesat nak cari CAC balik and takut direction yg Nasyer bg terlupa. haha.

'Turun tangga, kiri sikit, roundabout ke kanan, nampak palang ke kanan. Jangan masuk celpad!. Pastu terus je'

Lupa jugak tadi. Buat critical thinking depan celpad. /nak masuk ke dok, nak masuk ke.. ok tak pegi kanan/. Sebaik aaa betul. snifsnif. Cuak oo jalan sensorang. Pastu gi makan sensorang. /awkward awkward/.

EPT I tried my best ed. Harap dapat band5 kurang-kurang. Kalau tak satu sem belajar bahasa je tak boleh masuk kuliyyah. gile sedih tak tuuu? =.= Ya Allah PREASEEEE atleast band5 :(( for APT 'those who have no background in Arabic, may sit for 15 minutes, tick the 'I do not answer any questions in the booklet', raise you hand and may go out'. kehkeh. Simple. Style.

Balik mahallah. Heret kawan baru 2 orang. Atiq & Wani. Lepak lama gileee kot same-same. Pastu dak compartment sblh, Thieya bertuah pun join mmg bes la :P

bilik! D1.5-c :) - harus decorate nnt!

Malam mama dtg ambik. Yang paling cannot go, bawak segala suku kaum kerabat, mama/ayang/kaksu. Siap bawak mop dan vacuum bersihkan room |D Kesian akak senior isk isk. bahaha. Mama harus la dengan ayang terus berbaik dengan Thieya :P Berjam-jam borak siap sempat gossip hebat tak hebat tu |D

Btw, skrg kitew dah kat rumah. YAYYY room sweet room keke.

tak sweet sgt lah, masuk angin kot adeh sakit kepala dada semua sakit :(

ok byebye dulu :P

Dah Dalam UIA Dah

2011-09-19T15:51:00.003+08:00

sesat. Itu perkataan pertama paling ingat. |D Harus sesat. Besar kan tempat ni.

Pagi tadi jam. Nasib semalam dah pack masuk kereta semua. Semangat (la sangat). Pagi bangun memang macam ummah berjaya bak kata ustadz. Pukui 5 dah tegap berdiri mandi bagi wangi, zupzap siap, breakfast, tunggu pukui 7. Bertolak lepas shiomsalam ayang.

Sampai UIA sesat. Nasib baik ada hikmah ikut shishouMadi dtg UIA byk kali tau la kat mana kat mana arah sikit-sikit. Dah daftar, tetibe dia cakap pegi bank bayar dulu. Haruslaaa kan time tu hujan rahmat selebat-lebat turun tiada henti. Redah la hujan dengan mama. Kuyup aih. Jumpa dengan best cousin, ali hensem bak kate MY (gahahahaha!). Thx cousin. Kesian anda lambat p kelas dan basah kena hujan heh heh. Lepas dah settle semua dapat Mahallah.

dup dap dup dap. Ya Allah bg la aku Mahallah plg baik utk aku.

TADAAA~ Ruqayyah! mahallah yg kedua kot plg jauh dan sedalam-dalam alam UIA. Nasyer & Madi dekat Nusaibah. nak nangis :((. Tapi fikir balik, tadi kan doa kat Allah bagi la yang terbaik untuk shayyew. tak jadi nangis :)). Yakin yakin. La hawla wala kuwwata illa billah; there is no power & there is no strength except with Allah. Baru2 ni nak tanam dalam kepala, setiap ape yang jadi tu sentiase yang baik. Kita tak suka pun its ohkey, Allah knows better.

kawan baru kitew. kucing hensem. gambar pelik sbb die bergerak |D

hensem, tuxedo cat, semi long hair. dalam gambar tak nampak pulok.

die manje. ikut-ikut masuk bilik first time jumpa. mudah ni kalau nak culik. keke.

lain kali kite bawak piskis utk awak ye nyaunyau.

Pastu ape lagi, hmm hmm. Oh lunch. sesat sesat. Mahallah balik. Kemas-kemas. Settlekan satu dua masalah yang wujud dlm bilik. Harap akak yang duduk dlm compartment ni dulu tak tuntut tempat ni. Barang beliau penuh, tp sbb CF da bagi kunci... kira skrg compartment ni shahilashaifful punya la en en en? Kite tanak la pindah tempat lain ._.;

Roomates.. emm semua ok macam best baik belaka. 2 kakak senior. 1 adik, tapi senior la die dalam UIA ni. haha. Yang adik tu cepat betul berkawan dengan mama |D

adikbilik: Aunty org mana?
mama: Sabah tapi aunty da duduk sini lamaaa.
adikbilik: Aku pun baaa. Orang bla3. Aunty orang mana? (tadi guna bahasa biase, skrg dah tukar lingua sabah XDD)

mmkay comel je la dorg. Mama la duduk sini. Orang nak balik rumah :P Mama dari tadi kepenatan, rasmikan tido atas katil kitew. Sampai la ni dah lebih bape jam doh ni kul 3 sampai 5 dah nih. haha. Comel la mama. Tido je la ngn kitew kat sini. Ok gedik habis dah |3 Biar la mama tido lame sikit. Penat. Dia yang sangat beria mengemas bilik. shahilashaifful hanya mampu tengok, cam jahat. Bukan ape, compartment ni bila duadua dah bergerak harus tak muat. Jadi mama kemas, saya lihat dan kemas documents sahaja. Then saye sambung kemas barang saye sendiri.

Hee, time kasih mama :) mama tak tahu ni kite pujhi diew. kiki. *ego*

mama: uish rasa macam mama pulak masuk U. kalau kau tak masuk U shahila, tak merasa la mama jalan dalam U macam ni nak.

haha comel kan? :P

skrg sesi termenung je. UIA ni xde briefing pun utk bdk erayuan =.= Keliru kitew. Jadual pun tak ada lagi. Orang da start belajar. Harap nnt mudah je catchup and tak ada assignments tetibe datang mengetuk pintu minda secara tibe-tibe.

Btw, so far benda yang kena buat:
200911, Tue - English & Arab Proficiency Test.
21-220911, Wed-Thurs - Nothin. (BALIKKKK? 8D 8D 8D)
230911, Fri - Medical Checkup. TilawahPT. Result APT/EPT.

cuak. Arab harus la tak ada basic. English, ganbarimasu! Tilawah.. hmm bila baca depan ustadz ustadjah tak kenal harus la selalu tergagap macam orang tak reti baca. acane nii? :(

wateber lah. ganbarou ze! (' o ')9

ok japgi nk jumpe twin. kiki.

lbnl;

180911; packing 10% completed. kite rindu bilik kite dah =.=;

Sickness: ROOM.

2011-09-18T22:34:00.009+08:00

Sakit perut. Dahi berkerut-kerut. Mulut muncung tahap boleh buat sidai baju. Pucat biru-biru purple dan hijau kadang kala macam traffic light rosak. Mata berpinar. Berpeluh sejuk. Mundar-mandir dari tadi. Apa aku nak buat bagi hilang semua ni? Panadol tak pernah menjadi sahabat, tak suka! Pergi doctor, takpayah. Tau dah sakit ape.

Sila jangan percaya budak ini. haha. Betul la sebenarnye tp Ego nak mengaku. Dasar Scorpio! Tapi sebab kalau tak luah nanti tak tau la ape jadi kan |3

confession: Saye belum pegi duduk dekat UIA tp saye dah homesick, ehem, tak, i meant roomsick. HAHAHAHAHA ye sila gelak. Kitew tak biase la awak-awak. Kitew selalu duduk rumah jew.

*Ok geli la cakap macam tu. MiraeYusoff la ni ajar :P

Not like I cannot stand being far away (far la sgt) from my house, from my mom. I just dont like any changes. I hate new environments. haha. Serupa macam budak tak nak membesar la. Hanya selesa dalam zon selesa. Err.. mesti la selesa dalam zon selesa kan =.= (abaikan je, dia sedang berlawan dgn diri untuk menguatkan diri)

Tadi dekat twitter kite cakap:

Xpayah tunggu sampai UIA dah roomsick.

Bespren tweet tadi:

MY: @kurobunny jangan over pls.Jumaat dah balik hah.

kekeke. Besfren memang best :P Tau la Jumaat dah balik. Tapi tak biase kan. Walaupun dulu ade pengalaman duk hostel kptm 1 bulan. Tapi time tu ade geng 2 org. Kali ni sorg2. Memang padan la. hahahaha.

Kali ni la kau belajar shahilashaifful! Nanti dah duduk jauh (again, jauhla sgt!) baru lah boleh runtuhkan dinding ego and hantar message 'luv you ma' buat kali yang kedua (kes ini terjadi sekali mase duduk hostel kptm). BAHAHA. Dengan mama memang macam tu. Ego sikit. Dengan ayah auto type je 'LOVEEEE YOUUUU AYAAHHHHH' :P Sayang jew dua dua. Dengan mama kitew segan sikit. hee.

quote of the year shahilashaifful:

‎"i'll try to change my mind set. try to like IT instead of hating it every single sec in my life" - shahilashaifful.

(GILELAH)

haih. Otak tidak tenang :( Baik rehat kot. Gerenti tidak boleh tidur malam ni. SNIFF.

Ini bukan sakit homesick roomsick awal saje. Sakit banyak fikir sebab risau nasib dalam bidang IT. uhuhu. Tadi saje jenguk classes offered, yang wajib, co-curr, elective la ape tive la, mak aii sungguh merisaukan. Rase nak muntah pelangi wehh. Nak transfer credit ke? Nak ambil 4 tahun ke? Sbb banyak da lupe.

Ya Allah, helpppp :(((

lbnl:

ini dia muka org nk masuk U. exotic gile kan? gila tak hepi. hew hew.

lemmecryserabut.

2011-09-16T20:21:00.006+08:00

boleh

tak

rase

nak

nangis.

New

environment

greatest

enemeyyyh

T_T

#notetoself:

so TRUE :P

but its kinda like my new hobby these days. think too much to the point that i am burdening myself with more problems |D

SO SCARED MAN. Totally freaking out, still. adoi. Bersyukur la shahila, mungkin ini jalan Allah bagi, yang terbaik dlm terbaik untuk kau. Jangan fikir macam-macam. Pojitip je. Masuk je dulu. Time untuk kau belajar berseorangan. Sebelum ni, kerja kau ada kawan, masuk college kau ada kawan, kemane sahaje kau ade kawan. Sampai bila?

Masuk UIA nnt. Cari kawan. Senyum banyak. Tegur orang. Jangan kau jadi tunggul dan bila habis degree nanti mula cakap 'Aku berapa tahun ni tunggul je dalam kelas, x de kawan betul-betul pun, sedih oh'. Banyakkan tanya kalau tak paham, kalau ade kemampuan. InsyaAllah semua akan baik-baik. Allah kan ada.

Bersyukur la Allah letakkan kau dekat sana. Ade cousin sama umur dekat sana. Ada twin, Nasyer. Ada shishou, Madi. Walaupun mereke, semua senior-senior course berlainan. Kan dah cukup bagus tu? KAN KAN KAN?

look at how many ppl are supporting you :3

Jangan sedih. Ramai orang sedih sebab tak dapat, kau nak sedih sebab dapat. Itu mintak lempang namenye.

Ahahahaha. Tolong la shahila kau bukan budak darjah 1. Cukup la mase darjah 1, setengah tahun tak masuk kelas sbb lemah semangat nangis meraung setiap hari. Smile. Its okay. Everything will be just fine.

dear Allah, please help me. help me find my way. i hope you'll help me find my way in IT. make IT a path that will lead me to a bright promising future. a path that will lead me to a good career in future. a job that can help me support my family. make it something that can make them happy. i wish everything will be fine and smooth. help me be ready for the classes, lectures, everything. help me. ameen.

Good Luck, me - shahilashaifful.

gotta go get ready. so many things to do, in so little time. ganba ganba atashi!

Accepted congrats, Me! whatever.

2011-09-15T23:45:00.004+08:00

I was just watching an English movie; 'Accepted'. Cerite pasal kids that got rejected from God-knows-how-many-Universities-&-Colleges. I remembered 'result rayuan keluar 3rd week of Sept, might as well try me luck'

type tap type tap type.

and all i can see was TAHNIAH.. IT.

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okok breathe shahila breathe. i know ur freaking out.

Alhamdulillah, i finally got Accepted. 8D;;

but but

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i DO NOT KNOW should i be happy or SAD? i seriously feel like crying right now. i mean im not ready for this. arghhh.

breathe. breathe.

i got accepted in INFORMATION TECH. something i thought i wouldnt want to be associated with ever again.

whats even worse would be the registration flow. i need to stop working like immediately bcs the registration thingy and class will be starting like almost immediately.. like this coming 19th? 20th onward?

Dear Allah, help me, please. i am so confused. :(

nota: ade pulak org mcm ni kan, dapat tempat dalam U tp tak hepi. kau memang eksotik la shahila. haha =.=

Raya Dengan Bestie :3

2011-09-11T22:52:00.007+08:00

Hari Sabtu 10092011. Patut dah masuk keje dah. Patut la tapi. Sahabat-sahabat ajak pergi OpenHouse rumah Zul. Tidak di ajak pon oleh tuan rumah tetapi rakan rapat mengajak- isk rase segan la yeww. ekeke. Sara pun diajak. Hmm tak boleh jadi nih, dah ramai, lebih tepat lagi semua geng yang ohsem pegi, mana boleh SS tak pegi kan. Maka tak jadi masuk kerja. BAHAHA.

Pagi itu pegi raye rumah FaraKakAinot dulu (FKA). Katenye ayah die nak masakkan spaghetti. wiwit! Bekeroncong perut den. Semangat la siap kui 7 pagi dah siap (akibat bioclock gila bgnkan pukul 5am |D). Ok la semat2 pakai baju kurung, ZafirahSara (ZS) jemput naik sang kancil.

Sedapp spaghetti. Dah la mmg dah lama teringin. TERBAIKLAH! Dah la mmg dah lama tak jumpe, mmg riuh-rendah la. hehe. Agak lama kemudian, dah kenyang baham apa yang boleh dibaham, datanglah MiraeYusoff (MY), FaraAtikahAzlan (FAA) dan AfreedaAmir (AA).

Gerak ke rumah Zul. Ada 3 kereta. Pening-pening nak naik kereta mana. Last-last semua bawak kereta lepas ShahilaShaifful (SS) kata, 'ah senang senang bwk je sume kerete. Satu kete 2 org!' HAHAHA. Sungguh tak mesra alam. |D

SS naik kete ngan FAA. FAA harus pergi melencong sekejap ada hal. Bila dah sudah hal nye die cakap;

fa: eh kite nk ikut jalan mane ni? dah blur ni.
ss: eh? kau taktau nk jalan pegi rumah zul ke?
fa: eh? aku igt kau tau?
ss: eh? aku xpenah pegi rumah zul kot. aku igt kau tau.
fass: BAHAHAHAHHAA XDDD

Lepas bantai-bantai je jalan, selamat jgk sampai. Memandangkan mereke-mereke yang lain sampai dulu. SS & FAA tersadai kat luar. Nak masuk segan. Ulang alik depan rumah Zul. keke. Sampai call call dulu, dijemput baru masuk dalam. :P

itu tuan rumah. berbaju merah. zul :D

watak tambahan dari kiri: ZS & FKA

lepas tu mesti la ade sesi bergambar para besties. jurukamera: farakakainot.

SS, ZS, MY, FAA

freedaamir atau nama glemer yang diberi SS; cokodot. cokodot datang lambat. so upload la gambar ni. hihik.

gambar 'drama raye'. tu gambar kekonon salam yang terlindung disebalik meja. Harus la kan. Perlu la kan. :P Salam nampak tak nampak tak?

sebab besties semua lame tak jumpe. semua rindu tahap ohsem punye, kitorang decide untuk sambung lepakan dekat TuttiFrutti. ngee~

first kena ada soloshot bila depan chermin. heh heh.

fav flavour: choco & original. with strawberry & milo toppings.

ade sape-sape nak belanje kitew TuttiFeghuti (cara sebut baru :P) lagi tak? heehee. syg sriptlg lebih sebab bukak TF. Lain kali bukak pulak Subway & Coffee Bean! *demands* :P

busy pilih-pilih toppings heehee.

their definition of 'Tangan di Dada, Mata ke Atas' |D

Macam-macam cerita keluar. Kesengalan terserlah. Rasenye kat TF tu suara kitorg je dengar. Sebaik la tak ramai orang kan. teehee. Kalau tak ade yg kena sepak pang pang kiri-kanan sbb pencemaran bunyi melampau :P

sebelum balik kena ada gambar omeyomey ramairamai. Saya cukup tidak paham kemerapuan yg cuba dilakukan. Pengajarnye ielah FKA, patut buat muka macam beliau buat, tapi tak jadi, yang lain mengikut ape yang mampu je :P SS try jgk tapi asyik gelak je lantas dituduh mensabotaj mereka. lalala~

takeOne: SS hanye mampu tergelak. diajak utk buat muka omeyomey tu. tapi tak mampu.

takeTwo: ZS je waja buat muka omeyomey sorangsorang. keke. sabotaj!

heh heh. Ingat nak buat report penuh tapi mata mengantuk, malas. hee, later ppl! Harap dalam mase terdekat ni boleh hang out dengan besties lagi. Sangattttttttttt sekejap je mase rase kalau spend dgn diorang ni. X3;

Okie dokie, gotta go ppl. Salam. :Db

Bestie Sengal Adelah OHSEM!

2011-09-11T21:48:00.007+08:00

Bila hang out dengan kawan baik, sesengal-sengal conversation boleh berlaku. Otak dorang sentiasa active. Ada je benda nak cakap, ada je benda boleh buat senak perut terbelit usus akibat banyak sgt gelak.

Hari.. err Isnin pegi TS dengan MiraeYusoff & ZafirahSara. Otw nak pegi LRT jumpe FaraKakAinot. Oleh sebab masing-masing rindu-merindu maka tangguh kejap pemergian ke TS, singgah Secret Recipe makan lunch dulu.

MY dgn FKA.

Sebelum itu fetch MY dulu. Tunggu lah dia depan rumah dalam sang kancil ZS. Sekali bila die keluar dari rumah tak tunggu-tunggu

SS ZS: BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Kenape gelak? Sebab ade orang ayu yang suke gelak hewhewhew, pakai skirt ew ew. XD

Then we head to Secret Recipe. Order-order. ShahilaShaifful konon macam dah breakfast tak lapar jadi xnak makan minum. Lepas tu kitorg pun start berbual-bual. Dimulai dengan FKA yang sgt rindu ZA. So die kate xnak kawan SS. snifs snifs. ;_;

Memang terbaiklah. Bila dah lame tak jumpa kan. Banyak kesengalan terjadi. Tapi yang paling sengal gotta be after kiteorang dah habis and nak balik. SS teringin TuttiFrutti. Kereta parking depan TuttiFrutti sebelah kedai PapaRich. Dah sampai hajat TuttiFrutti, pegi lah kereta.

4: Alaamak, kereta mahal mana pulak block ni?

SS: Weh dah pukul brape ni kalau nak tunggu cube hon hon~

ZS: Ee taknak la aku bukan jenis hon hon org ni.

MY: *HONKKKK*
SS: BAHAHAHA XDD naisu!

ZS: Eh boleh tolak tak kete tu.

SS: ISH kete mahal tu kene saman kang x pasal

ZS: Sape suruh block kete orang. Nak cepat ni. Eyerr

Sebab SS kesedapan makan TuttiFrutti, duduk je dlm kereta. ZS MY & FKA dah keluar dan pusing2 kereta mahal Audi. MY dah siap cekak pinggang kepanasan.

Tuptap ada kot dlm 10minit ke lebih tunggu kat luar tu. Hati dah arghh cepat la org nak gi jalan ni. Tapi SS tetap duduk dalam kete, abiskan TuttiFrutti keke.

Sekali nampak seorang lelaki cina berbaju hitam, tough, tinggi, berseluar jeans, keluar angkat tangan sambil berlari-lari anak, mulut macam cakap Sorry, sambil tersenyum-senyum.

Sejurus itu jugak..

ZS MY FKA: *muka senyum telinga ke telinga* AHH ITS OKAY ITS OKAY haha.

Lepas masuk kereta.. kata-kata kat bawah ni menghujani telinga..

ZS MY FKA: KYAA KYAA. Gila howt dowh. Terus tak jadi marah.

ZS: WAKAKA kau tengok gila tough kowttt. Die mesti train body. Pegi gym blablabla.

FKA: Dah la die senyum, malu malu cakap sorry.

ZS: Gigi gila cantik. Cara die lari tadi tengok, ohsemmm.

MY: Cairrr wehhh. Eh nak byebye die lah *byebye incik Cina tersebut bila kereta selisih.

IncikCina: *senyum malu malu*

SS: Ok macam obvious je, haha mesti die perasan. Korang ni nak je aku rakam kejadian dlm kete ni ha.

- kebisingan berterusan untuk beberapa minit -

[dialog di atas adelah lebih kurang sebab tak igt sape yang cakap mane satu |D]

BAHAHA. Tak ke sengal gile tu. Kalau orang tu tak macho macam tu mesti dah hancur comments2 yang diberikan. Hujan pujian berlaku sepanjang2 perjalanan menghantar FKA pegi rumah die balik.

dekat TimeSquare akhirnye :P

dengan topi idaman ZS. SS tetibe masuk jgk wee~ :P

Oh girlfriends, korang memang comel la. XDD Yang tak terlibat dalam post kali ni FaraAtikahAzlan, FreedaAmir, korg pun omeyomey gak okay hee. Spending time with you girls tak pernah rase cukup! tsk, lain kali kite plan lagi yee, we need to see each other more often like SERIOUSLY. Sebab walaupun dah keluar beberapa kali sepanjang raya ni, dah raya same-same semalam, TAK CUKUP dah rindu korang lagi dah :'(

gambar bonus:

MY hew hew hew dengan skirt ayu keke.

nota: igt nak cerita skali conv sengal time raye same-same tp banyak sangat. kepala dah penat. esok nak kerja. tak jadi lah. kikiki. ok baibai. :P

Kalaulah Berubah itu Mudah

2011-09-10T10:27:00.000+08:00

Kalaulah berubah itu semudah menyebut 'Bertukarrr' dalam bahasa melayu atau 'HENSHIN!' dalam bahasa Jepunnya.

Sepanjang hidup almost 21 tahun ni kan, I think.. there's nothing I can be proud of. There's nothing Im really good in. Not sports, not study, not cooking, not games.. basically its all NOTs.

Sometimes I do wonder if I am only good at being suck in almost everything I do.

No, i am not having one of my terrible mood swings. Not being emo either. Its just that my recent habit of too much thinking made me thought of the line above.

Seriously shahilashaifful, grow up. Go learn things you've got no choice but have to learn.

Lately, many people including my family have been a great critique. And it suffocates me.

'When will you grow up?'
'Hey stop eating you are F.A.T now. Would you like to go to McD with me today?'
'Just look at you, there're all kinds of keychain hanging here and there, what, are you a baby or kindergartner or something?'
'You look like you are so stuck in your TEENage years, go change your image already'
'You see? Your friends is GOODJOB in doing house chores, they can clean, cook, etcetc not like YOU'

Again I'm asking to whoever read this, 'Is it so wrong to be me?' But I do realize, there're some things, I'll have to learn especially like #5. But I am a slow learner, I'll learn when I feel like learning. (haha? X3)

I know I AM weird. I dont care actually because I think I've come to like being different. But its just sooo.. umh frustrating when all those lines come from all around me non stop and it started to make me think, 'Ohkayy, do I have to change now? Be someone that is not really me?'

I'll change when I feel like changing. LALALALALALALA im not listening LALALALALALA- is what I think Im gonna do from now on =.=

but still I am not solving any problems. hahaha. watever HAKUNA MATATA~

stole this picture from capt-san's blog. haha. i dont wanna make a tumbr acc. so i can only reblog/reuse it here.

Dear Allah, pls help me. Show me the way. I hope someday I can be a woman who can do almost everything like my mother. And be someone intellectual and wise like my father. So that I can be someone they can be proud of, a good daughter, a good wife and a good mother. ameen. :'3

kay, today nak pergi rayaraya dengan bestie- ii ichinichi ni narimasu you ni. i wish today will be a good day. ameen.

New Rubik's Cube :D

2011-09-09T12:13:00.000+08:00

One fact about shahilashaifful, which may be weird or may be not, is that she loves to fidget with things in her hand or she'll feel something is just not quite right. It distracts me from being restless or overly shy in public. heehee. Sungguh tak sah lah kalau tak ada something dekat tangan lagi-lagi kalau shahilashaifful tengah duduk sorang-sorang. Kurang-kurang pun mesti wajib ade pen or pencil utk conteng.

Nak jadi cite, Rubik 001 (kanan sekali) saya ada masalah. Ketat habis. Merah-merah luka tangan den. isk! Tapi sabar je la. Sekali something went wrong and I cant solve it, iirc there are cases Rubik yg kena bukak and susun manually sebab memang tersalah pusing sampai pi mai pi mai tang tu gak, xleh solve. Tapi entah somehow aritu try try boleh pulak :P

Rubik 002 (kiri sekali) baik sikit. Tak smooth sangat tapi skrg die dah loose. Lama die berkhidmat untuk shahilashaifful. heehee. Sepanjang2 kat TS die la yg teman.

ANDD

WELCOME to ze familyyy NewCube yang kat tengah tu. hihi :Db

Rubik 003 tu original punye. Asal die daripada Toy's 'R' Us. Beli kat KLCC smlm2. Ingatkan die ade spring, rupenye tak ade, xpelah asalkan sedap nak pusing-pusing. ngee. Smooth dan licing wiwit~

Haritu bile start keje balik dekat TS mmg harusla rase nak nangis. Rehat sorang semua sorang, i feel like an idiot. Well I love being alone tp when its too much, staring eyes everywhere, its hard to keep my composure (she loves to act like everything is in control, on the inside, perghh jantung macam nak meleetup :P)

So I thought, I need something to play with during my rest time. And the first thing that came to my mind was, 'Cam sedap je nk pusing2 rubik's cube'. Tapi kalau main tak reti, tak coolio la tak macho la kan. Berjam dok pusing cube tapi x dapat selesai kan tul dok? |3

Maka google lahh kan tutorial. Sumpah, susah okayyy tutorial bertulis. Then I found a Youtuber yg buat tutorial sampai berjaya ajar ramai orang siap masuk t or someting ikr. Esok tu jugak pegi beli Rubik's cikai Rm4. Ikut punya ikut. memanggg sumpah pening. mana pulak die pusing ni, eh aku punya warna biru kenapa die punya warna camni camtu. Tengok ulang-ulang, terima kasih kepade OCD diri sendiri yang suka menyusahkan diri sendiri tp somehow sgt membantu dalam process membuat sesuatu sebab tak boleh benti punye selagi tak dapat or puas hati.

Incik Rob http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_yU-EwlRRvc ni ajar Rubik's tuto daripada sekecil-kecil Rubik's Cube ke sebesar-besar. Untuk kitew yang 3x3 dah la kan. keke. Die ajar dalam 7 steps. Berkat sabau, mesti boleh sbb ada budak kecik umur brapet tahun je dah pandai sbb ikut tutorial Incik Rob.

Anyway, untuk yang curious, here're few facts about Rubik's Cube:

1) Yes, ada formula untuk selesaikan

2) Yes, tak kira mcm mana bersepah cube tu, sama je formula dia

3) The cube is not about nak samakan warna satu tempat tuuu je. Sumpah nnt bersepah balik. Ade steps and formula yang kena paham baru boleh selesaikan.

Basically the formulas are:

1) Easy: None. The first paling senang, pusing2 sendiri sampai dapat.

2) Easy: Match certain color and rotate 180*

3) Med-Easy: [R T Ri] or [L T Li] or if necessary [R TT Ri] or [L TT Li]

[You'll need to use these formulas again and again, cuma cara pegang or certain color punya position je kena pastikan dulu baru boleh guna formula ni]

4) Match certain color, rotate to Right/Left (depends on the color) and use formula #3

5) Med:

F T R
Ti Ri Fi

6) Med:

R T Ri
T R
T180 Ri

7) Hard:

Ri F Ri,
B180 R Fi,
Ri B180 R180

8) Hard:

L180 Ti B,
Fi L180 Bi,
F Ti L180

(for #7 & #8 i made up sentences so I can remember em easily. example: #7: Refree BreadAreFree RebateRate. #8: LateTyPe FiLletBy FunTillLate. I know it doenst make any sense but do I look like I care? X3)

Anyway, there're so many other variations of Rubik's cube sampai macam tak cube dah pun ade! I wish I can learn em all but as expected Im just too lazy. keke.

mmkay i dont think its gonna be useful... this post bahaha but i just feel like writing em out. For err future references? Who knows if i might forgot all the formulas after some while not playing with the cube aite?

asalnya nak ckp pasal TAMAK beli cube baru. Tapi macam tak kenal pulak shahilashaifful ni dengan diri sendiri. Harus la nak type panjangggggggggg selagi boleh :P Teehee!

ohkay byee!

oh before that, random:

kekeke ini terjadi bila masuk ToysRUs :P Bumblebee desu~

bye fo real!

*goes watching tutorial for 4x4x4 (oh dear, here comes my OCD)* =.=

Oh Jantung Tenanglah.

2011-09-08T01:09:00.000+08:00

Gelinye shahilashaifful ni ew ew. Sejak bila pulak pandai tulis title huruf besar dan skema macam tu, ayat geli pulak tu.

Lagi satu, hati is liver kann? seingat saya, menggunakan saki baki ilmu Biology, hati (liver) dekat sebelah perut kalau dalam diagram, di bawah sebelah kanan kot. Yang kita selalu sentuh kat dada tu, Jantung. Jadi.. BM ni salah ke? keke. Kiranya Sakit Hati = My Liver Hurts lah kan? mmkay pelik kan? Patutnya sakit jantung la. Bila kite sedih mesti pedih kat dada, Jantung la kan? :P Whatever, hati pun hati la.

ok nak puaskan hati ni gambar dr google XD

Baru-baru ni, terutama masa bulan puasa. Ramai. Ramai kawan dilanda masalah 'hati'. Kawan yang perempuanlah. Yang lelaki, err tidak tahu kerana saya tidak bertanye dan saya tidak dicari. Perkhidmatan sebagai ehem doktor hati, doktor cinta. Ye, tak tahu kenape, dari zaman sekolah, most of the times if not always, shahilashaifful selalu tiba-tiba jadi doctor love utk org. Pergh boleh la ni jd councellor ke tak? :P Walaupun hati sendiri huru-hara, hati sendiri sedang saki, guna pengalaman yang ada, segala KBKK yang boleh dilakukan, memberi pendapat dan nasihat.

Tak pasti kenape tema nya adalah masalah cinta, masalah hati, kali ni macam wabak, sorang kena sorang lagi pun nak kena jugak haha. Sebab shahilashaifful suka banyak berfikir sampai muka jadi habis serious garang sebab berfikir sampai hilang dalam dunia sendiri baru-baru ni, dapat la sedikit sebanyak jawapan yang mungkin betul mungkin tidak;

'mungkin Allah nak uji atau ajar untuk mengawal perasaan/emosi'

tapi sebelum ni dah kena dah macam ni, setiap kali kena, sakit!

'mungkin Allah haritu bagi level 1 punya, sekarang level atas sikit, atau mungkin sama level, or level mudah, tp tetap sakit la apa2 level pun bila dah soal hati ni. Allah bagi lg untuk update kekuatan kita' (eceh level, macam main game la pulak)

Kawan, Sahabat, Rakan, bila sampai mase rase dah taktahan. rasa asyik nangis je dah penat. rasa macam boleh tak tetibe nak hilang dan datang balik when september ends. rasa macam hati dan jantung nak meletup pedih dan sempit. saya tahu anda mungkin muak rasa nak muntah pelangi dengar semua ini tapi percaye lah, cara-cara untuk hadap dan stop masalah hati ni bila dah taktahan sgt. tak lain tak bukan:

1) Dekatkan ler diri tu dengan Allah

baca la Quran ke. Zikir ke. baca quote cinta ew ew tu yg islamic version. bukan yang emo belaka. dengar lagu nasyid ke yang mendayu-dayu sikit, bagi hati lembut, rindu dekat Allah.

2) Banyak fikir dari pandangan Islam

fikir guna soalan-soalan seperti contoh-contoh di bawah:

- kenapa Allah hantar ujian ni semua?
- ada something yg Allah nak ajar kat kita ke?
- kalau setiap yang terjadi ade sebab, apa sebab kali ni?
- and so on. (soalan2 diatas adalah untuk jawapan2 yg positive je ye, bukan mempersoalkan kenapa la nasib aku macam ni tak macam tu)

3) Cari hobi, cuba divert attention to something else

pegi try beribadah ke, tengok anime ke, stalk artist ke, baca buku ke, main games ke, ajak kawan main tengteng ke, melukis ke, tulis blog banyak-banyak ke. bila kite dah into something, baru la kite akan rasa macam 'ok boleh je aku hidup xmati pun sebab masalah hati tuh hee'

4) Spend time with friends

ini untuk short term, temporary solution. bila kite dgn kawan, share masalah or tak share pun xpe. just try enjoy, spend good times together berkasih sayang ke bertepuk tampar ke. bagi happy hati. :D

5) Self-reminder: 'org itu' hurts me a lotttt

setiap hari tanamkan rasa 'dia tak dapat aku dia yang rugi' ke 'i deserve someone better' ke 'Allah mungkin simpankan someone yang lebih baik' ke 'dia dah sakitkan aku sampai macam ni skali, arghh'. slow slow hati akan tawar. slow slow akan rasa 'boleh je hidup tak ada dia'.

Tp ini mmg ambil masa gilaaa laamaaa sebab ingat senang ke nak tak suka orang =.= Bertahun lamanya pun kadang tak sudah sudah! atau kadang perasaan dah tenggelam boleh lak timbul balik, eeyer.

Bosan kan dengar semua tu? Bila tgh ada masalah hati, memang auto-degil tahap batu gila tak boleh nak terima. 'GILA TAK BOLEH' 'Impossible' 'Sakit laaaa asyik ingat je', thoughts macam tu la akan keluar. Sebenarnya la realiti nye, Nak dengan Tak Nak try. Tapi shahilashaifful tahu, hati ni bukan mesin, boleh on off set macam mana kita suka. Kalau dah tersuka orang tu, tetap la suka. bukan boleh di set 'suka' 'tidak suka'. semua auto, semua datang sendiri.

Suka orang, hmm. Memang fitrah manusia la kan, nak berkasih sayang. Pada shahilashaifful, suka boleh tapi pandai-pandai la jaga batas dari segala segi: emosi, pergaulan, dan yang sewaktu dengannye. Kalau boleh biar betul-betul serious kekal sampai bila-bila. Baru la ohsem kan? :3

Oh ya lagi satu cara yang ada, yang makan masa dan menyakitkan tapi kalau dah tak boleh buat ape-ape pasal perasaan tu, ni je la cara yang shahilashaifful dapat fikirkan;

6) Go with the flow.

Pergi nangis puas-puas. Sakit hati puas-puas. Meraunglah, bergulinglah, berserabutlah ahai chek mek molek. Sampai la satu masa anda rase fedup, dan penat sampai fikir 'arghh sudah sudah lah aku! time untuk berhenti dan teruskan hidup yang lebih tenang dan normal'. Tapi oh Tuhan, berapa lama masa ambil untuk sampai ke tahap itu, wallahualam. Ini jalan pedih. heh heh.

Good luck diri sendiri, Good luck kawan-kawan. Semoga Jantung cepat bertenang semula.

Last but not least;

La Tahzan inna Allaha Ma’anaa

— Do not grieve; indeed Allah is with us.

'Dan janganlah kamu berasa lemah, dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, kerana kamu paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang yang beriman' [Ali-Imran:139]

ngee, byebye salam :D

Selamat Hari Rabu BLOG-san!

2011-09-07T10:21:00.000+08:00

Ho yeah ho yeah.

Come stop ur crying, it'll be alright.

Just take my hand hold it tight~ [tarzan song, jstyk]

ok stop nyanyi la shahila. hahaha |D

dari smlm saya make over blog. baru la terkial-kial nak kacau bahagian Design blogger ni. selalu jeling2 je tengok blog org lawa ceria. blog sendiri mcm sarang kelawar gelap nak emo je. sebenarnya malas nk susah kan diri. stp kali dulu try guna templates, rasa nk pening dgn XML. malas nk layan. |D

skrg dah ade features baru, xreti nak try pulak. ni baru terkial-kial. org IT la sgt shahilashaifful ni. *muntah pelangi*

pilih punya pilih background color semua bagai. ok dah siap. sekali xpuas hati dengan banner. cari dekat google 'stripes'. tak habis stripes je. haha. tu paling mudah. dah jumpa. tp kosong sgt. sakit mata ni bila nampak kekosongan. ingin disumbatkan trademark2 shahilashaifful, agar ada personal touch sikit kan. maka terjadi la banner yg skrg.

drpd pelangi kosong jadi begini:

tak puas hati jadi begini:

sebab sakit jiwa nak pilih. kero mata nak bandingkan. minta pendapat rakan-rakan di twitter mereka semua cakap yg ke dua itu banner pilihan hati. oh ye ke. ok lah ikut pendapat orang ramai. terima kasih anda anda. :D

tergerak hati nak check firsttt ever post dlm blog ni. bertarikh Lapan September Dua Ribu Lapan. Dalam nombor begini 080908. wau chantik nya! 8D mata terjeling jam, dan terlihat, oh! hari ni 070908! makanya esok Birthday blog rawrbunyrawr la kan?! yg ke.. er 3 tahun!

HAPPYYY BIRTHDAYYY BLOGGG XD

wauu syabas blog. kite dah membesar same-same 3 tahun. mata yoroshiku ne m(_ _)m (ok kejap mcm same birthday ngn captainsan la pulak XD)

heehee tu je nak tulis sebenarnye. nnt kite date lagi ye blog. arini nak pegi date dengan shishou madi, pegi kinokuniya. *hepi*

byeee~

kamu tak kenal saya.

2011-08-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

know that I AM:

kalau fikir balik, fikir dr pandangan luar. point of view org.

- shahilashaifful mmg seorang yg sombong, menyampah, tak friendly, menyakitkan hati, hati kering, gile belagak. and the list goes on.

kalau mode hati kering: peduli ape, korg yg salah sbb salah paham *bricked*

kamu tak kenal sy, tak akan dpt kenal sy kalau kamu tak tahu bagaimana. kalau kamu cepat putus asa, kamu tak akan kenal sy.

sy segan. sepanjang mase. muka berkerut, tidak senyum. itu tanda segan. muka default. tidak tahu nak kawal muka macam mana.

senyum dulu baru sy senyum. cakap dulu baru sy cakap.

kadang2 fikir, betul jgk org ckp. shahilashaifful suka kucing, makanya perangai n muka pun kadang mcm kucing dah. for example, if you push me to do something, no way no way. im not gonna do it. if you suddenly try to be too friendly or too close, i can be repulsive. i make gap. i got scared and start thinking 'whadoyuwan?'. let me be alone, then i'll slowly become approachable. mcm kucing. cuba kejar, x dpt punye. cuba slow2, insyaAllah ok. :)

there're also several facial expressions or body languages yg kerap dilakukan;

- muka :3
that is shahilashaifful being friendly to strangers. anyone can try tegur me.

- muka >:(
muka kerut, sedih dan emo. tanda shahilashaifful sedang berfikir dlm 'dunia' sendiri. atau die segan tahap ultra maximum punye. shahilashaifful suka berfikir banyakbanyakbanyakkkk. bila berfikir sampai hilang dlm 'dunia' sendiri xperasan ekspresi muka mcm mana. buat org takut selalunye. heheh.

- starts touching eyebrows or any part of face
sgt segan. attempt nk sorokkan muka.

- muka straight face, kelip mata slowslow ;;)
it is said that in cat's language, kalau dia pandang kite n blink their eyes slowly, it equals to a kiss. tp x de la shahilashaifful bg kiss kat org. jadi kalau shahilashaifful pandang anda dengan muka lurus, kening ke atas, mata kelip perlahan jgn anggap ia adelah 'kiss' dr sy, tp its me being open & friendly ehem albeit, QUIETLY la tapi.

kalau fikir balik i might have hurt people's feeling. maybe spjg mase kerja pun ade. spjg mase belajar dulu. i know how very useless im am in crowds especially around new people. so shy i cant even smile, let alone start a conversation.

its so hard for me to change. but syabas to those who uhh succeeded in 'finding' the real me. the me you see, is prolly only the 'outer' me. the mask/wall i've created. listen to my heart saying and you'll find ME. (mandai je macam org betul senang2 boleh dengar heart saying kan XD demand gile dak nih)

scorpio people are like that. what they show on the outside contradicts with the inside. we tend to show people that we are calm, we are okay therefore no one knows what is really happening on the inside. as for me, i show people i do not care about them. i dont really care. especially around new people. but on the inside, i'd love to be friend. i'd love to try talking. it hurts.

LOL sometimes i thought of the same thing. tp i think im the one who's being stupid am i not? XD;;

i know its so stupid of me hoping for people to be friendly first. i should have tried making the first move too. but nothing can beat my shyness. srsly nothing.

i'll try changing after this. should i be in a new environment with new people i'll try to be friendlier, i'll try :3

tp la kan, skali dah kenal shahilashaifful, harusla anda tahu die sgt biiiiisinggggggg X3;;

ahaha random gila post ni. rase nk tulis something tp x de idea makanya ini yg terkeluar.

ok Selamat Hari Raya peeps! :D

iCARE! :)

pantang betul eiishh!

2011-08-27T23:08:00.000+08:00

ETIKA atau dlm Englishnye disebut; ETIQUETTE.

xpaham. org dalam dunia mmg ada macam2. tp xpaham, kenapa la certain ppl susah sgt nk beretika? hormat. respect. tanam semart semart dlm diri. ini tidak, suka nak down kan org.

pantang betul bila dah buat baik, kau tegur mcm xboleh cakap baik2. betulkan sikit cara bercakap tu. buat org sakit hati paham? jgn cari musuh paham?

pantang betul bila org merokok tak hormat org sekeliling. anda nak rosak kan paru-paru anda, sila buat sorg2. jgn libat kan org lain.

pantang betul bila org judge tanpa kenal org mcm mana.

pantang betul bila org nk solat, di marah mcm org tu x ada perasaan. mcm kerja tu je yg penting. kalau mati time tgh buat kerja, kau ke nk tanggung dosa org yg 'tertidak' solat, 'terlambat' solat?

pantang betul bila org shopping, x reti nak kasihan kan atau memahamikan para pekerja. kami manusia jgk. kau kumbah mcm ada harta karun. tolong la tahu, sakit segala urat sendi nak melipat. xkisah lipat, itu kerja tp melampau kalau sampai tiada satu pun baju terselamat dan masih cantik berlipat di dalam 10 bins! cari la baju elok2, angkat dan piilih kemas2. bukan gali bin!

pantang bila org mcm rasa diri ini pelik & tidak reti nak hormat 'kepelikan' org. taste kau bukan taste aku viceversa. nak buat mcm mane betul tak? just learn to respect people. i clearly knw that i can be childish and weird at times, tp adakah ia menyusahkan anda? adaaa? adaaa?

dikelilingi dgn org yg kurang.. ermm tak tahu nk cakap kurang ape |3

hari ni mmg hari yg kurang baik. mcm2 benda dan manusia menyakitkan hati.

pagi pagi bonda yg memenatkan diri sdri melepaskan tempias-tempias kegeraman. ok tak ape sabar je lah.

datang kerja, bin2 yg penuh dgn ribuannnn keping baju yg penat lelah dilipat dgn kasih syg di kumbah sampai jd mcm gunung everest oleh customer yg patut dengar ceramah 'etika bershopping' dr cik dayang shahila.

tak tambah lagi ada beberapa makhluk yg sungguh 'misteri' yg agak menyakitkan hati kalau difikirkan.

oh bukan itu je, masa nak rehat ada brader pakistan yg hanya diberi 30minit masa rehat (ye TS mmg kejam mcm tu) kena marah maki hamun sbb keluar rehat awal ke ape tak paham. mmg betul lah ape yg die kate, 0730 tu nk solat. kau nk bg die rehat 0730 utk makan dan solat? tahi lembu! kami yg ada sejam pun terkial kial tahu?! kau tak solat tak puasa ape tahu?! lps tu maki hamun die depan org. kau kejam!

bukan itu saje. surau. sedih betul tengok surau. tidak dijaga. ahli surau seberapa kerat. tiada aircond walaupun x de pun x pe. x de surau utk customer (paling bodoh). org pegi solat pun boleh jadi issue kadang-kadang. sedih. org nak solat. peruntukan 20minit. ye lah tp perempuan ni byk hal. haruslah terlebih sikit kadang-kadang. ramai yg tak solat, korg ape tahu?

org yg berkuasa besar sikit, eleh dalam the store je pun. jgn buat aku yg duduk diam tak berapa nak bermasalah disiplin ini meletup. cakap xboleh nak menyakitkan hati org lg ke? cakap baik2 mmg xboleh ke? kau menyakitkan hati aku. pedih. nak tegur pasal pakai hoodie je kot. arghh depresi!

org itu: eh kau ada surat ke nk pakai jaket ni? kau sakit ape teruk sgt ke nk pakai jaket?

ss: *blur* eh? sy taktau pun kena ada surat? igt kan kalau sweater hitam boleh pakai?

ss: sy sejuk la kak, tak tahan. (lagi2 hari ni mandi sebelum sahur, mmg beku sampai skrg)

org itu: kau sejuk mcm org lain x sejuk?

org itu: esok kau ngn kawan kau pegi naik HR mintak surat

ss: (makcik, aku nk keje lg 3 hari je kot. xyah nak tunjuk hebat la duh~) ooo ok esok jgk saye mintak lah kalau begitu.

org itu: kau dgn jaket dgn anak patung kau, manager pandang je.

ss: ok... dah terlupa dorg letak pencil case lion sy dlm hood. xsengaja je pun.

'baik' sungguh cara beliau cakap. sebagai org yg selalu botol kan perasaan, yg susah nk marah. mmg sentap td. rasa nk nangis mula nye, tp lama2 jd keras hati. lg rase nak memberontak. kau silap makcik. kau silap. sblm ni org kutuk kau, aku diam. tak masuk campur. dengar je. sbb aku rasa, kau tak buat aku sakit. tapi skrg kau silap. malas nak hormat org yg sebegini.

selama ni beliau mmg suka cari pasal marah org sana sini. aku xpeduli pun. aku x ada masalah disiplin. paling pun masalah pergi solat terlebih masa. sebelum waktu rehat dsb. well waktu solat peruntukan 20minit bg kaum perempuan. kenapa mesti nak guna waktu rehat sejam itu? pakai 20minit utk solat lepas tu rehat.. itu tak langgar peraturan kan? sbb mmg dah terang ada 20 minit utk waktu solat. korang yg tak solat tu boleh diam diam xperlu nak xpuas hati.

dah dekat raya mmg harus shahilashaifful emosi sikit. oh kejap mungkin bukan sikit tp banyaaaaaaaaaak. nasib lah. elok elok dr sikit dah jadi bukit kerana org org yg membuat hari ini jd hari yg sgt ERGHHHH akljshdlakjdksasdk!

ARGHHHHHHH. sabar sabar. Ya Allah help me make tomorrow a better day D:

p/s: i know im being sensitive. i know i am srsly confused. am i annoyed and emotional bcs of what happened today or bcs of that and that person or.. idk. sigh i'd better sleep.

di manakah die arah yg patut

2011-08-25T00:16:00.000+08:00

first nak complain sikit pasal umm typical thinking org ehem mlyu.

#01:

orang: blaja dekat mane?

ss: dekat KPTM

orang: ooo.. @ mmm.. @ ape tu? KTM? train?

shahilashaifful cakap:

hellooo sila google laaa makcik (slalunye makcik. makcik yg x terlibat ampun ye hehe). kalau x reti google go sinun: http://lmgtfy.com/?q=kolej+kptm

itu satu masalah. lg satu oo kalau masuk kolej ke poly ke mula la 'mm x brape nk cemerlang la tu'. duh~ byk kot org brilliant2 masuk college. even yg xbrape brilliant pun kekadang kat college excel jgk. lg hebat dr org brilliant. anak2 org china MOSTLY masuk college. why? bcs college is far more flexible, lenient ke ape. jgn la asyik2 nak fikir org college ni x pandai. =_=

#02:

orang: keje dekat mane?

ss: the store. saje2 keje.

orang: ooo :|

shahilashaifful cakap:

kalau org keje the store kire mcm xclass la? xpandai? xhebat? asalkan org cari rezeki halal dah ok la tu. ada jugak inisiatif nk keje. what's so bad abt being a promoter ke s.a ke cashier ke ape2 la. semua tu experience kot.

#03:

orang: amik course ape?

ss: computer system?

orang: IT? mm ramai betul org amik IT skrg. sampai mcm x de peluang keje.

shahilashaifful cakap:

hellloooo lg skali. skrg ni pegi je mane2 opis, mostly akan ade IT dept. kalau pandai cari keje, celah mane2 pun ade keje utk IT. igt kalau org amik IT x de class la? blergh~ kalau betul2 komited ngn keje, boleh kaya kot jd programmer. cume i je x brape nk minat nk susahkan kepala ni dgn codings. keke.

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main point is, stop looking down on people. jgn judge org berdasarkan rupa/kerja/etc/etc. stop jgk dgn typical thinking. itu adelah activity yg tidak sihat lgsg. tqvm.

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ok sbnrnye topic asal adelah 'arah'

sungguh la shahilashaifful confuse.

asalnye nk go for TESL.

tapi tgk ada kawan amik Psychology, sememang nye diri ini berminat nk belajar Psych.

tapi kalau fikir balik, IT ade mase depan dr segi kerja. mungkin kah Networking itu seronok utk dipelajari? atau IT biasa yg balance dr segi programming, networking, multimedia bla3 itu lebih baik utk diri ini?

confuse la.

confuseeee.

confuseeeeeeeee.

diulangi confuse gile.

dear Allah, help me find my way. ameen.

i have my own style

2011-08-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

trend. skrg ni semua nk ikut trend itu ini. ok shahilashaifful pun ikut gak trend tp certain je la. i prefer being unique. being different. being me.

kejadian ini berlaku di suatu malam die kedai mamak.

[continuation from FB status]

mama: kau ni da masuk 21, bawak2 la tukar image kau tu nak. style kan sikit pakai selendang ke ape. xabis ngn tudung kalau tak hitam, putih kau tu.

ss: alaa ni gaya org, xpe la pun. nak style style pun nak ngorat sape pun.

mama: xde la, image tu kan penting.

ss: asalkan kemas dah ok la tu ma. lgpun kalau nk ikut sgt, kang abis duit asyik2 beli selendang la tudung. byk lg benda lain boleh beli.

mama: ala keje la dpt duit beli. sapa suh kau keje kat the store tu xdpt duit byk pun.

ss: asal kan keje da ok la tuu. ade ke keje dgn niat nk bli selendang. lg pun kalau asyik pakai baju ni nk match ngn tudung tu ni tu ni, mau melambung bil letrik mama asyik nk iron. mama kan kate leh guna iron sminggu skali, iron skali gus semua benda sebakul?

mama: .... mcm2 la kau ni. *bengang*

mcm tu la bila 2 org yg x berapa nak ada mood (kadang kadang) bercakap XD;;

muwahaha. srsly, saya ada style saya sendiri. tidak perlu tunjuk ajar fesyen dkt shahilashaifful. mungkin anda bergaya hot. bergaya stylo mylo. saya suka simple. atau kalau nak spesifikasi atau define gaya yang saya suka; different + omey omey (baca: comel). baca betul2 ya, bukan nak masuk bakul angkat sendiri, saya hanye ckp, sy suke gaya yang comel, bukan saya comel. okei?

baju kurung berbunga2. tudung yg terlalu stylomylo. handbag. kasut tinggi. semua buat sy migrain. tidak selesa.

baju kurung plain kain kotak2. tudung hitam/putih. sling bag. sneakers. semua buat sy happy dan selesa.

lilit2 sgt tercekik kang x pasal je. ok merapu hahaha.

tqvm.

kakak la aunty la wateber la |D

2011-08-14T22:33:00.000+08:00

ok nk emo jap la kan. hahaha.

tau la diri ini tidak berapa nak muda lagi. sekadar twenteen nak masuk twenteen-one xseberapa lame lg.

alkisah nye td sedang shahilashaifful sibuk2 melipat baju kat the store busuk tu kan, kedengaran bunyi yg membuatkan separa diri kata 'bukan kau biarkan je' and separa lagi kata 'tengok tengok sapa yg dok jerit2 tu'. akhirnya tengok jgk, maka terjadi perbualan berikut;

chinese-kid: aunty aunty aunty

c-k: *looks at my transformer keychain*

c-k: umm.. aunty where can i get a cart?

me: huh? a card? what kind of card do you want?

c-k: no its that thing *points to a random customer's trolley*

me: ohh cart not card XD;; you meant a trolley huh? its right infront of the bakery.. *starts explaining*

c-k: oh alright, thanks! :D :D

me: ok no problem XD XD

the kid was cute. pendek, chubby2 :P i think he's abt standard 1-3 kottt. comel je. mungkin die pon kompius lepas terlihat keychain, 'mcm bebudak tp keje... aunty la kot' mungkin ape yg budak tu fikir :P

terkedu jap org pgl aunty kan. hang jap. lambat gile nk register dlm kepala. well budak kan, maybe die xtercapai lg akal nk fikir ada je akak abg lepas spm/bljr keje. sokay pun dah ada anak sedara, so auto jd makcik jgk kan. hee kalau customers tua, makcik, pakcik, akak, abg pgl 'Kakak/Akak' tu xkisah lg. da terbiase sgt da. kekadang nenek tua, nyonya skali pun pgl 'Akak' rela je la XD

haih la mcm2. ok penat. da la terbuat benda mcm plg bodoh arini. xsangke terkeluar dr mulut, xsangke tercakap kuat my inner thought. aiyerrr. *hentak2 kepala*

oki doki, nk rehat :D

i wonder...

2011-08-12T19:52:00.000+08:00

i wonder if letting it stay as a secret is a better option..?

i wonder if doing this is better than doing that..?

i wonder if giving it a go (something with risk) is better than doing nothing?

then if doing that certain something made something goes from good to bad.. what do i do?

*confused*

mmhmm life is confusing. we need to try in order to gain the answer. but trying can be scary at times. me, i prefer not trying, most of the times. which is kinda, mm disappointing at times.

introducing choco & kuro

2011-08-06T21:08:00.000+08:00

dah lameee kan x de post pasal makhluk comei kucing. ye lah dah x berkucing kan :( ok dah sebelum emo haha. tajuk tu saje je nk bg name. hahaha mereka 3 beranak adalah generasi ke.. errr... *dah lupe ke brape* kucing yg mendapat PR kat kawasan blkg rumah. dtg mencari rejeki. choco and kuro tu budak2 kecip nih:

baby miow #01: choco.

die punye warne la yg dilute choco. but i guess dlm gambar x nampak. die sgt HANDSOME. rasa nak buat jd bf je *bricked* XD

choco ni berani. die berani cube. dtg shiom2 tangan pastu baru nk sentuh die larikkkk. tp lame2 dpt gak tangkap. bila dah tangkap bg patting session la kan. garu2 bawah dagu, kakuuuu je. xde perasaan. kesian kan? die x tahu itu care bermanja.

tapiiii bila dah kena skali smlm, bila try ngorat beliau lg hariniiiii ini terjadiii:

seee? XD dah suke la tuuu. *sekeh choco* comei gile kannn. look at those mesmerizing eyesss. shining eyesss. hee.

ni dah besar nnt mesti jd hero comei ni. tgh pening lalat nnt agak2 nk neuter ke x. sbnrnye elok neuter bonda nye. kesian tgk. jaga anak sampai kurus cekeding. anak da besar pun kasi susu lg sbb kekadang lapar sgt. ye la bg friskis skali pun, dorg x de la lalu mana nk makan. kami2 ni pun kurg mampu la nk beli makanan kucing lg memandangkan stock duit MARA dah merosot =_= tp mama miow tu mmg mission impossible betui nak tangkap. nk neuter dak2 ni lak rase kesian selain drpd xde duit |3

main bola n tali pun x reti, kesiannye. sblm dorg membesar jd kucing2 yg kurg kekucingan (mcm mama dorg, xnk disentuh, xreti manja2, xreti erti gurau2) baik biasakan, betul x?

so td buat bola dr surat kabau. mcm biasa choco je yg berani. mama miow pandang slack. kuro pndg je dr jauh xpasti ape tindakan yg perlu di buat. mmg super penakut lah.

hee sekian saje report hari ini. comei blake dorg ni :Db

nyau yg berbuka dan bersahur sekali :D

2011-08-04T09:13:00.000+08:00

good morning peoplee. heehee sempat lg nk tulis blog few mins before pegi keje |D malasnyeee dala full lg, kene jalan kaki pulak tu.

anyway, akhirnyeee dpt jgk snap picture dak kecip ni. omey nyeee die.

org sahur dorg pun turut bising. mama dah belikan friskis khas utk dorg. kekeke. kesiaan sgt. lapar je memanjang. dak kecik ni ade adik ekceli tp tu lagi mega penakut. time ni die tgh main sorg2 kat luar. dorg ni kucing dpt PR kat blkg rumah.

jenis mintak makan tapi xnak ngn org T^T sedih ar tacing. tp tadi berjaya gak mengacau dak kecik tu. hehe mama die pandang slack je time org wat patting session dgn anak die.

dak kecik tu cantikk. warna die mcm dilute choco. n warna mata die pun xmcm biase. its almost blue but not so blue :Db die yg slalu curious. beberapa hari sblm ni offer tangan, die dtg bau2 bila nk sentuh die larik. today dpt dah angkat2 die walaupun die keras ke sbb takot.

sian kan? they know nothing abt love from human. dorg tak tahu, xpernah disentuh dr kecik. walhal dorg ni adelah haiwan yg patut disygi. yg berpotensi utk mendapat kasih syg mencurah2 dr manusia. huhuhu. rase cam nk buat kucing sdri pun ade T^T

nnt blk keje nk try kekacau die lg kot2 die dah nak ngn org kan :Db

ni kucing bersahur. kucing join berbuka pun ade. smlm mase berbuka kat parking the store. keke. terbau makanan la tu. dorg pun join. sian dorg x de makanan. arini niat nk bawak friskis la. kot2 berjumpe lg kan :D

smlm time makan tanye nani (N) ngn intan (I)

S: eh esok korg shift ape?

N: noon. kenape?

S: korg berbuka nak balik rumah ke ape?

N/I: mm tgk la. nape nye?

S: kalau berbuka kat the store ni kite berbuka kat parking lg la, cambes lak oh. n aku nk berbuka ngn kucing2 ni lg :DD

N: itu jgk yg kau tanye dulu kan?

S: kekeke mestilaaa kucing2 adelah my brothers n sisters X3

adik2 sila join lg sesi berbuka hari ni. ada piskis tau. hehe ♥

ok lah dah kena jalan p keje aih laaa =_+

influence hero saya

2011-08-03T06:29:00.000+08:00

org dekat the store rase sy pelik. makhluk unik. makhluk x sedar dah nak masuk 21 tp perangai kalah budak tadika.

mana tak, pencil case pun singa. bawak pulak game. main rubik's cube. sila rujuk pic beg kerja di bawah:

i enjoy being different (konon- do i even realize im being diff? |D)

salah ke perangai macam budak2? i can be mature too, when the situation needs me to be. bukan susah kan org pun kan? berjiwa muda :3

kalau pasal lion tu. mungkin ramai tak tahu. selain sebab shahilashaifful sukeeee dgn cat's family (lion tu cat's family ke? ntah, same je la tu XD). the main reason sebenarnye sbb dari kecik shahilashaifful & ayah sgt la suke tgk Lion King. and ayah selalu cakap die Lion/King Mufasa.

sape taktau King Mufasa dan malas nak google sila tekan sini: KingMufasa

muwahahhaa. dah tau dah?

dari kecik kalau jumpe soft toy singa ke, keratan akhbar (cewah) ada gambar singa ke, buat handmade arts ke, harus HARUS beli/bagi dkt ayah la. sampai skrg pun, lukis singa pun jadi. haha :D

itu la reason nye shahilashaifful suke sgt gune 'RAWR', lion-related stuffs semua. it reminds me of my father. :Db dari kecik ape2 pun mesti ckp 'nak macam ayah'. sikat rambut mase kecik nk pakai minyak or gel, biar nampak mcm ayah. nak pakai spec, nak pakai belt, nak mcm tomboy-ish. macam ayah.

plg xboleh blah, da besar nnt nak kawin dgn ayah :)) dasar kanak-kanak. ayah la paling hensem, paling hebat. geng dengan ayah. sbb i am a girl kot. slalu org kate perempuan rapat ngn ayah time kecik, da besar ngn mama. lebih kurg la tu. da besar2 ni jd 50-50. 100-100 pun bleh la kot XD

woah zaman muda XD;

ayah, my hero :Db

*notatepi01: pic#2 is not shahilashaifful. itu adik shahilashaifful. X3

*notatepi02: pic is too big. click to view full pic.

amende nye membebel nih. motif sebenar is; i miss my hero. leh lak meleret panjang2 :P well tak shahilashaifful la kalau post tu x panjang kan. hehe.

lagi skali attempt Wordless Wednesday x berjaya. muwahahaha.

ok skrg rase sedikit ngntuk. abis la, arini nk buat FULL kononnye. adoi =.=

sokay its alright im strong 8Db

salam to all. have a good and nice day! May Allah bless us all ameen.

topic pelik: early marriage

2011-07-31T10:13:00.000+08:00

sebab shahilashaifful is feeling sad and blue today, also sebab bangun terkejut, kepala berat semacam, hati kata tak mahu kerja Morning (ceh smlm iye kate nak buat Full hari ni), langit pun bagai tak restu, hujan. lepas tu hujan bereenti kejap, ok lah alang2 dah pakai tudung semua nak pegi keje la, skali lebat balik. asal terdetik hati nak pegi Morning, lebat kembali. Ok, mungkin ditakdirkan utk keje Noon harini.

baru nak tidur, nasi goreng sausage da siap. alamak, dah makan nnt mana boleh nak tido dah. |D tp sebab kelaparan terpaksa la bangun gagahkan diri makan dan kini menaip depan laptop.

topic harini macam pelik. jarang2 shahilashaifful berbicare ngn mama. kitorg mmg begitu. cakap bila perlu and ade mood :P

*sedang makan*

mama: shahila, kau kenal junior kau tak? anak makcik 'blablabla' tu. junior kau dulu kat sekolah.

S: mmm mane eh? ntah. ah jap, anak pakcik 'blablabla' tu ke?

mama: haa tau pun.

S: sebut ler nama pakcik. (haha nak tau name lelaki je isk isk. xde la kalau kat sekolah kite auto tau la nama ayahnda org kan, sbb bin/binti ayah kan?)

mama: die kawin dah smlm, muda setahun dr kau.

S: WAUUUU, serious? budak tu? budak yg muda setahun dr org tu?

mama: yee. bagus la camtu, lepas ni dah halal je dorg nk dating ke apa.

S: haah betul. they can start off like a normal couple. bila dah ready nnt or sampai masa leh la duduk together kan. that's nice.

mama: haah. nnt kalau kau da ade org berkenan, bawak jumpe mama terus je senang, kalau pass kawin je la senang.

S: ........... *hampir tecekik sausage* hahahahaha

'hahaha' - itu je yg mampu dilakukan. gelak sambil tercekik :)) not because it was unexpected, well ok mmg unexpected pun sbnrnye. the question is, am i ready? of course not. shahilashaifful yg masih bersukaria mcm kanak-kanak riang ni, you expect me to shoulder that big responsibility? 8D;; mmkay, x ready. cuak. takut. haha. malu la ai~ *slaps self*

ye la bila renung balik, tgk diri sdri, cermin diri sdri, rase x de confidence lgsg. just who am i to think that i can just marry someone and be a good wife? byk lagi nak baiki. kerja rumah pun x pass lg kan. hehe. masak x yah kate la, xyah nak tipu la kan, honestly im still lacking in cooking, cleaning and everything. but yeah semua ni boleh belajar. maybe i havent found the reason utk mengorban kan diri ini utk belajar (for example; a certain someone). keke, org patutnye as a girl terus ada instinct dlm bidang2 cemtu xyah tunggu ape2, ntah la that's because im me, im unique, im different? bkn semua org perfect dianugerahkan dgn skills kan? and also fobia ooo, sakit gile ooo mase kecik kene pecikan minyak yg byk kat leher, first attempt lak tu kan time tu T^T not only that, i like kids but i like kittens better *bricked* tu betul tp lebih tepat nye xreti sgt dengan budak2. tu pun sbb x de confidence jgk. takut nnt main2 skali die xnak or nangis. down aa kan, tacing. see? tsk tsk.

in conclusion, shahilashaifful ni penakut. semua benda yg die x familiar, die x de confidence. kekadang rase frust ngn diri sdri pun ade sampai x tido malam fikir macam2. dlm study, keje, new environment; unless im already used to it, i'll be scared *sigh* (contoh: nak keje kat the store ni pun sbb da penah keje kat situ dulu. nak sambung study xla suke pun kptm tp rase nk sambung sane balik drpd dpt upu, sbb dah biase ngn kptm. pathetic je.) im still trying my best to overcome all that tho :3 i will, umm someday heheh.

anyway back to the topic.. where were we just now.. err

i've also thought that nak abiskan study atleast degree la ape la baru fikir. jauh lg benda kawin2 ni kalau ikut logic shahilashaifful. *merenung jauh* siap terfikir gile la kalau before or atleast around 25-26y/o mama ade calon or suruh kawin ke ape kan. mau meraung berguling :P tp org kate manusia merancang, Allah tentukan betul x? kawan2 ade je ckp,

kawan01: 'ntah2 tup tap esok dayang kawin dulu hahahahahhahahaha'

kawan02: hahahahhahahaah

me: =.=

but the idea of early marriage is nice actually. relationship dah halal, so you can start off like any other couples. pegi date la pegi jalan la pegi sane sini same2 semua x ape, x berdosa. bile dah ready, dah habis belajar then you can slowly start living together. aint that sweet? :3 but still, mungkin yg menakutkan is the fact that kite dah terikat dengan someone. what if it doesnt work out. bukan macam couple-couple, xsuke, xserasi, da bosan, aku tinggalkan kauuuu *lari jejauh*. skrg ni takut mcm2 jenis manusia ada. kawin tinggal, kawin gaduh, kawin x bahagia. hrrr i have issues with org yang xreti nak setia, nak pasang dua tiga empat lima enam seratus. yang suke main2 kan org. scary oh T^T

tp kalau nk fikir positive la kan, Allah itu Maha Mengetahui and Penyayang. Relationship yg dah Halal, insyaAllah with Doa and everything it'll be protected by Him. betul kan betul kan?

so i've come to think, whatever it is, i'll leave it to Allah. He knows what is the best for me. Doa je so that one day I'll meet someone that will love me and accept me for who I am and our love will last till the very end. Ameen.

love me?

and.. *inserts dramatic BGM here*

LOL cam creepy je XD

picture credit to: alchemyotaku17@deviantart

*nota kaki: borang-permohonan-shahilashaifful available la kot dkt madam mama. keke sape2 brani leh la try audition bahahaha ok geli *bricked* XDDD

p/s: ok ewww gile ok post ni. jarang gile shahilashaifful nak ckp pasal benda2 cemni |D

p/s/p/s: btw, uhm, jap lupe dah nk ckp ape |D

lastly, assalamualaikum to all and Happy Ramadhan :D

-sejam lg nk gi keje |D

ober sensitip

2011-07-30T22:32:00.000+08:00

hesh. hesh. hesh.

bile dah dekat nak puasa raya ni shahilashaifful mule la kan nak over 'tacing' la, over 'sensitip' la, over itu, over ini. tak tahu kenape tapi setiap tahun pun jadi camtu.

just when i need someone to talk to, time2 tu la jugak kan semua org tidak available. ok x salahkan mereka pun hehe. tp tp tp tp nak jgk cakap ngn sesapeee *bricked* ;_;

lagi sakit bila ada benda yg menyusahkan kepala tp nak cecite kat org cam xpatut. so kena la botolkan dengan cermat dan simpan sensorang.

dan bertambah sakit jiwa bila berade dalam situasi yg pelik dan aneh. memenatkan diri sdri bila memaksa diri utk buat taktahu.

mungkin sy patut tido awal arini. xperlu fikir byk2. menyusahkan kepala je nnt.

all kind of tesuto bcs im bored |D

2011-07-29T10:18:00.000+08:00

i thought of doing OT today but i ended up feeling very fuzzy and tired this morning. its raining and all. so i decided to go for Noon today instead of Full X3 bcs i dont rly hv anything to do, i decided to play around with quizzes and tests so the results are as below:

You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you. (ahaa yeah in the past few weeks i've been told many times im weird, unique et cetera et cetera. so what? im just being me~)
You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right? (hahahaha shoot, i dont wanna grow up *kicks personality test*)
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

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You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well. You keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat. When you are care, you care deeply, but are more likely to show your feeling by deeds rather than words. You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to things or people you care about.

You take a very personal approach to life, judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values. You stick to your values with passionate conviction, but can be influenced by someone you care deeply about. Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your lives, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by quiet reserve.

In everyday activities you are tolerant, open-mind, flexible, and adaptable. If one of your inner loyalties is threatened, though, you will not give and inch. You usually enjoy the present moment, and do not like to spoil it by rushing to get thing done. You have little wish to impress or dominate. The people you prize the most are those who take the time to understand your values and the goals you are working toward.

You are interested mainly in the realities brought to you by your senses, both inner and outer. You are apt to enjoy fields where taste, discrimination, and a sense of beauty and proportion are important. You have a special love of nature and a sympathy with animals. You often excel in craftsmanship and the work of your hands is usually more eloquent than words.

You are twice as good when working at a job that you believe in, since your feeling adds energy to your efforts. You see the needs of the moment and try to meet them. You want your work to contribute to something that matters to you-- human understanding, happiness, or health. You want to have a purpose beyond your paycheck, no matter how big the check. You are perfectionists whenever you deeply care about something, and are particularly suited for work that requires both devotion and a large measure of adaptability.

The problem for you is that you may feel such a contrast between your inner ideals and your actual accomplishments that you may burden yourself with a sense of inadequacy. This can be true even when you are being as effective as others. You take for granted anything you do well and are the most modest of all the types, tending to underrate and understate yourself.

It is important for you to find practical ways to express your ideals; otherwise you will keep dreaming of the impossible and accomplish very little. If you find no actions to express your ideal, you can become too sensitive and vulnerable, with dwindling confidence in life and in yourself. Actually, you have much to give and need only to find the spot where you are needed.

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Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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Personality Test based on 4 pictures that i chose (cat, heart, coins, violin)

You'll drop everything to be with the partner of your dreams, and you'll give their sentimental presents rather than expensive ones. Nevertheless, your spontaneous nature does have a limit, and when the romance is over, you'll head back to work to pick up the pieces.

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You could win the Nobel Peace Prize for being such a good lover! You are a truly understanding person, and put all of your trust into your relationship while also maintaining your independence. You would be many a man's perfect woman. (LOL yeah right |D)

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You don't like to be pushed around and you won't do something just because you're expected to. If you are interested in an issue, you will find out more about it because you want to, not because you have been told to.

serabut xpaham

2011-07-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

serabut serabut serabut.

ape yg kau nak sebenarnye. tolong jgn susahkan hidup org boleh tak. blergh. org da bg chance buat bodoh pulak. mende tah. u expect me to do whaaaaaat? =_=

let me haz peace. T^T

sekian.

saye tak reti buat Wordless Wordless Wed ni XD

2011-07-27T07:25:00.000+08:00

sbb sy nak tulis jugakkk tak kireee *slaps self*

"Fear less, and hope more; Whine less, and breathe more; Talk less, and listen more; and hate less, so you can love more"

"Sometimes there are no next times, time outs, or second chances. Sometimes its now or never"

"Look for the rainbow in every storm!"

found these quotes somewhere on the net. they're all super nice I feel like pasting all of em here. i personally think those quotes above can be used in many situations xkira la on life ke work ke love ke :3

i know i've always been someone who'll run away from my problems bcs im scared to face em. bukan semua la. ade yg we've got no choice but o face it. mm contoh like how i am always scared to ask ppl questions, xleh nak initiate conversation due to excessive shyness. i'd rather be sesat, awkward et cetera et cetera.

pe jadah letak muke sdri? xde saje nk gitau

1) saye nk baju itu tp mahal gile XD

2) muka garang mcm tu adelah muke default sy so sila jgn takut sgt la. xmakan org pun.

3) i frown when im shy X')

ok merapu ape ni. ahahha ni mesti sbb bgn awal sgt before gi keje |D

fraaaweee ai likeee

2011-07-23T07:44:00.000+08:00

yes flower i like :3

THIS! whatever this flower's name is (anyone can enlighten me?) :3 no need for roses hoho. i've loved this flower since i was a kid.

why?

its a wild flower (kan? XD) yet it looks so cute and pure. and im sure its strong, since it can grow at random places mcm atas dan tepi2 jalan tar the store ni X3

smlm nk amik gmbr lg, ade satu tempat tu penuh ngn bunga ni tp ai segan la kan. ni pun tgkp cecepat, org pandang cam 'budak ni ada masalah di kepala ke?' |D

ok jgn merapu. sila bersiap sedia pegi keje (padahal baru pukul 0750 je pun |D)

meet my new nyau fren :D

2011-07-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

semalam cuti. tp mcm biase shahilashaifful memang terlalu rajin nk dtg the store tu. lepas p tgk harry potter osm, balik dr TS(square) pegi TS(store) :P

sampai sane dpt tau nanana ninini nani bertuah MC. sian intan. so teman die rehat. jodoh.

org mmg jenis malas nk p makan luar skrg ni tempat panas2 kotor bagai kan. tp ye lah dah jodoh kan. p la kedai makan yg dipanggil padang. gerai tu kat err kawasan luas utk pasar pagi. so yeah bila org tanye makan kat ne? 'padang' tau2 la maksudnye kedai kat situ.

pi la ngn intan makan sane. skali OOO EMM JIIII! baru je sebut 'eh aku rindu ar ngn kucing da berbulan2 aku x de kucing x sentuh kucing' skali muncul laaa beliau niii:

tgk die buat muke sposen XD

gile manjeee XDDD sukeee. hik hik. ni buat rase nk rehat kat padang tu setiap ari X3 ngaum!

manje giileee buat la ape2 sume die x kisah. siap dtg main2 guling2 lg. hee sempat la dukung2. x kire dah die kotor ke ape. mmg nekad nk peluk2. cantik tau dak kecik ni, die orange tabby, marble. 8D

arini morning tp tuptap keje byk cam malas nk sambung esok nekad nk siapkan arini (pekeje contoh la konon la kan XD) so buat la full walaupun the store busuk tu boleh lak rosak ekon, sakit jiwa den. panas gile mandi peluh sepanjang hari. tp alhmdlh keje siap semua dah esok leh poya2 XD kekeke. ok where were we just now? oh ye so bile full lost jap rehat ptg nk watpe. patut ikut rutin biasa. tp skali intan ngn nanana ninini nani ajak gi padang. ok fine. p sane malas sbnrnye patut xnk pi dah tp pi gak sbb kot2 dpt jumpe dak kecik tu kan. dann dgn nasib baiknye dpt jumpeee. tengok tengok tengok

heehee kawan baru. :Db

makanan ruji: rotiitusedap

2011-07-18T00:14:00.000+08:00

hahaha random gile the store nye bakery:

comelkannnnn? xperasan pun de bunny bunny tu. dah makan abis baru perasan hahahah :P

slalu makan 2 jenis roti. smlm tensyen. the store tu x tau la pesal byk langau. smlm tgh syok2 makan, ada lagi separuh kot roti tu. de langau tetibe lalu lalang. ok fine beri laluan. lalu lagi, syoh2 la die. lalu lagi die landing atas roti. lagi satu taktau pesal langau2 dlm the store tu semua BESARBESARGILE n cam agak OKU atau LKU (langau kurang upaya) kalau da hinggap kat mane2 cam berat gile bontot nk terbang balik. mm mungkin sbb dorg gemok kot, obese? |D aa sambung cite, ade ke patut die hinggap atas org nye roti. harus la halau kan nk makan lg. syuh syuh fuh fuh die x larik. ketuk2 pon xlut. sedap je tengok close up die 'cup cup' lg roti tu |D las las kegelian kemualan dtg, terus la tutup bekas tu gam balik, n letak dlm beg plastic n buang |D slamat makan langau. terima kasih kerana mengganggu saye. tsk!

xpelah, tertulis da roti tu rezki langau tu kan. lepas buang tu rase nyesal. ruang oksigen mmg ade utk beliau bernafas tp escape route tu... |D nnn, ntah2 langau tu ade family ke kan /_\ maaf langau.

rehat stp hari sorg2. bes jgk. ikut timing sdri. boleh makan kat mane2 ikut diri sdri. x de peluh2 kuar ikut kawan makan kat luar kejar2 mase. ho ho.

ok dah abis cite XD

bersendirian itu best

2011-07-17T23:58:00.000+08:00

berdua lebih baik? ok itu mungkin anda anda punya style. ha ha ha ha ha ha.

bersendirian lagi macho. *bricked*

ok sebenarnye nk cite sedikit sebanyak rutin shahilashaifful dkt the store. ehem. shift die ade 3 jenis: M, A, F.

morning: 10-7

noon: 1-10

full: 10-10

rehat yg shahilashaifful suka, pilih setiap hari would be

morning: 1-2

noon: 5-6

full: 1-2 n 5-6

tapi kalau bab rehat, suke kuar dalam suku-suku atau bila minit jam menunjuk-nunjuk ke arah 15-20minit. saikologi la konon. rase cam lame. rehat dr 5-6 rase sekejap. so kalau kuar kul 5.15 rehat sampai 6.15 tu, bila tgk jam kul 6, rase cam 'W.A.U, wauu! ada mase 15 mins lagi' XD

waktu solat shahilashaifful pulak

zuhr: 1.45-2.00-2.30

asar: 4.45-5.00

maghrib: 7.30

asar tu lepas tu terus cabut p rehat. kekeke. kalau zuhr punch card dulu baru pegi naik solat muahaha. ye la peruntukan solat kate ade 20mins utk perempuan. mesti la kene gune kan? ok sbnrnye shahilashaifful makhluk sengal. kekadang rehat sejam, siap makan 30mins terus masuk balik sbb taktau nk buat ape |D bukan kene bayar pun kalau rehat kejap. tsk. pekeje contoh? *masuk bakul angkat sdri*

rutin rehat. keluar, pegi beli roti kat bakery yg dulunye sedap skrg ni rase cam blergh tp makan jgk sbb mudah n roti tetap bes walau x sedap camne skali pun. pastu jalan p kerusi kat hujung tepi toilet. HAHAHAHA. gile OSM kan tempat makan bila org tanye kat ne, 'ala sy rehat kat kerusi tepi toilet tu je' XD;; cam x senonoh je kan. tp biar la selesa. malas ar nk p makan kat luar, panas2 blergh.

pastu makan sambil bace english novel. then da bace sampai puas ati, bace sambil jalan berhati2 pusing2 ruang legar the store. org mesti harus pandang pelik je budak seko ni pe jadah. tp skrg dorg pun da malas nk ckp pape sbb drpd start keje aritu rutin same je x kire time lunch or rehat ptg. gagaga da la sorg2.

kalau da bosan bace or stress. main rubik's cube plak. selesaikan 2-3 kali sambil jalan pusing2. dah puas keluar n pusing blkg pegi staff entrance utk punch card n masuk keje balik walaupun ade mase lik 10-15mins |D

ok tp sbnnrye post ni asalnye pendek je nk ckp 'DEM tempat makan skrg bau busokkkk! buduhhhh betui la' XD tensyen tau x? nk duduk mane lg makan. isk, dah berbau gile lak. sambil makan sambil bau toilet. xkisa la makan kat kerusi tepi toilet tp bile dah ade bau tu x bes la kan.

ok tu je XD

smlm full, arini full, esok pun full lg. hahahaha |D basic rendah terpaksa la full byk2. hahahaha.

menjadi blur itu tidak baik

2011-07-15T22:22:00.000+08:00

jap, jap. fikir jap. adekah sesungguhnye shahilashaifful mmg blur sejak dahulu kala? mm kemungkinan itu ada. td lg buat sesi memalukan diri sendiri tanpa disuruh.

masuk kerja tetibe supervisor company ada dtg buat lawatan mengejut. ok x kejut pun. arini noon. pagi2 kui 9pagi die da call.

Supervisor: 'elo, aaa dayang aa, you ada masuk ka hari ini?'

Me: ade ade tp sy noon harini

S: ooo ok la sy cari Miss Chong.

Me: wtfish.. 'Ooo okok cari cari hehe'

*nota: miss leong ye bkn cheong |D

then bila dah masuk noon dgn smgt waja nye nk jumpe rakan taulan.. jumpe supervisor dulu. ok la amik arahan dari die. bla tu bla ni ok dah. tanye la sikit2 baju new arrival nk bg discount ke x bla3. pastu die ckp nnt die check kan yg mana dah boleh bg discount. ok la fine. jd shahilashaifful pun rajin ar tulis2 codes2 yg nk suh die check.

Supervisor: ok you tulis yg ini, ini dan itu. Ini juga mungkin ada discount. Saya harus check dahulu.

Me: i see i see*tulis tulis tulis*

Me: alright miss ni lists yg miss nak.

S: ok saya tengok.. *pegang kertas n hulur tangan*

DANN dengan bijakkknyeee

Me: *blur* *simpan pen dalam poket semat semat* *sambut tangan supervisor, SALAM?*

S: ... eii you ni kelakar la. buat ape i nak salam you kite bukan baru kenal?

Me: *snaps out from blur-mode* ohhh ahh miss sorry sorry sy tgh blur panas kat luar td. *tahan tahan gelakbahakbahak*

S: i nak pen you la.

ok begitu la cite nye. punya la shahilashaifful cube sedaya upaya tahan gelak mcm nk pengsan, senyum senyum sipi je. sampai supervisor balik ard 10 mins lepas tu terus terduduk kat lantai tepi kaunter n bantai gelak sampai kawan2 n jiran2 pandang pelik apesal budak ni meroyan ke ape. DEMMMMMMMM SHAHILASHAIFFUULLLL T_________T anda sungguh memalukann. no way im gonna forget whatever happened todayyy waaa.

igtkan scene mcm tu ade dalam manga shoujo je |D blergh stupid stupid ofcourse aaa supervisor tu bukan nk salam kan. ntah cane tah leh tersimpan pen n tangan yg dihulurkan. mak ai, kalau shahilashaifful putih mesti dah merah cam tomato ni |D dem dem dem.

arghh malu. ok dah nk lupekan *tipu*

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* he messed my brain up, crap!

like a picture stuck in my eyes, i keep thinking of you?

2011-07-14T22:40:00.000+08:00

so uh i wrote all these during my working hours. bcs im bored yeah |D kekadang x de customer sampai seharian x bukak cash bill. so kalau x nak muntah pelangi ke darah ke isi perut ke, xyah bace pon xpe.

case001

stop being nice to me. dont be nice to me. stop being good to me..

being cold n indifferent about me, i think that'll be better

being unaware of me, i think that'll be better

bcs i refused to believe

case002

been thinking of our 'meeting' scenes again & again

been reading the same thing over & over again

God knows how many RWs & FFs it has been

keep wondering when'll be the next time for our next 'meeting'

hoping there'll be a day, we'll meet again

& i'll hv the; CHANCE + COURAGE i need

to face you; Mr.Someone-idk

although i knw very well; high chances

i wouldn't be able to be brave enough

the probability is close to or worse BEYOND impossible.

sad but that's ME.

will it always remain in me or will it ever be delivered to you.. i wonder..

I tried imagining,

imagining how would it be the next time i saw you

imagining what do I do when I next see you

I wonder if you'll be happy,

or if you'll just ignore & walk away

When imagining is already impossible, will everything be alright for me?

Or am I thinking too much into it?

*muntah pelangi*

sekian

salah dengar, kan dah malu

2011-07-13T21:21:00.000+08:00

terbaca status sis DC kat FB pasal salah dengar arahan. terpanggil nk menulis sebelum pegi keje. (ecewah)

smlm demam tp sbb offday yg dtg eminggu sekali harusla pegi jejelan kan. pegi la KLCC, sampai2 tetibe dorg tgh buat fire drill rase nk lempang je. tanye incik teksi kalau pegi TS brape, die kate ard rm12. wau kensel. terus patah balik naik tren. sbb x larat naik monorail skali. sampai sane shopping jap. pastu pegi setel kan bill bonda.

smlm malu miow dkt posopis. mmg la pakai mp3 sekuat2 yg boleh tp bkn betui2 ltk kat telinga. bayar bil, ada abg pos ensem (akan di type as A slps ini) yang layan

A: ye dik?

Buny (B): bayar bil hee *sengih sengih sambil hulur sekepuk duit n bil*

A: *buat keje* .....

A: dik, bla3 bla3 bzzz...

B: err? 8D ape die?

A: .... bzzz ..... *bg baki*

B: mmm xpaham *jauh2kan headphone*

A: tadi... duit tu bg dah betul.. tapi... *tunjuk calc*

B: aaa... eh ape ape?

A: x de, total mcm ni mcm tu, adik bg td mcm ni mcm tu

B: .... jap maksudnye sy kene bg... eh? ala bang sorry mak sy slalu bg ckp2 je duit. (yes xpenah nk check duit ckp ke x, tau bagi sekepuk je org pos slalu pandai menguruskannye)

A: ye, mcm ni.. *dengan muka penuh sabauuu*

B: ooo kire sy kene bayar lg rm5 la ni?

A: ye dik ye.

B: *MALUGILAOKRASENAKMASUKTONGSAMPAHNYOROK*

A: haa patut la x dengar nye, tgk tu headphone kuat gile abg pun dengar

B: hehe *ceepat2 snatch headphone* tenkiu n sorry *blah laju2*

maluuuu okkkk |D cam org OKU lak pekak tetibe. perlula kan?! x dpt control macho. hahaha.

empty

2011-05-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

right after i got home, all i can see is an empty cage. alone.

So yesterday was the adoption day. Madi tolong hantar pegi Selayang, arigatou shishou. Lepas hantar Kyon Ace Wolf pegi rumah Sis DC, we went to KLCC for lunch. Mcm biasa rutin masuk Kino kyakya dkt manga lepas tu bought BOOST juice unfortunately my fever got worse after that I cannot stand any smell be it perfume, foods.. anything or else i'll feel like puking |D sighhh.

ni demam berpisah dgn budak2 tu ke ape. huhu bila balik tgk empty cage, duduk kejap depan tu, igt balik moments2 together. lps tu rase nk pengsan sbb badan panas sgt, masuk bilik terus pengsan x sedar2 smpi ptg. bila bangun rasa mcm nk meraung berguling2. but i decided not to cry.. kesian budak-budak tu mesti dorg takut dgn environment baru, tiba2 kena pisah lepas tu kakak die yg sorg ni boleh sesenang je nk nangis. mcm unfair la kan.

let's work hard together ya Kyon Ace Wolf. eventho kite jauh pun we're still under the same sky on the same earth (eceh ayat x boleh nk jiwang karat lg)

my first day with smallish mini Kyon.

KyonKyon syg, we've been together since ur soo small. Been thru lots n lotsa ups n downs together. Dulu, Kyon fits perfectly in my hands, now ur so big semput nk dukung (tipu) hehe XD Kyon yg benci air bila mandi naik atas kepala sampai luka2. Kyon yg suka cherryberry. Kyon yg sentiasa comot mata. Kyon yg sgt mischievous. I'll miss everything abt you dear. Forgive me dear for sending you away, pls understand yea. Although you enjoy ignoring me for most of the time, when ur tired, u'll always come back to me for a nice patting session *squishes Kyon*. Its countless, the times you had easily turned my bad day into a OSM!good day. Thank you Kyon.

Ace yang penakut :D

AceAce syg, you've grown into a big fat handsome black cat. Dulu kurus ramping. Skrg... err tough? XD You're always the coward one, it took me like 3-4 months to make u finally accept me. Seminggu pertama, Ace xnak makan, xnak keluar dr litterbox, xnak buat 'bisnes'. You had me realllll worried there. But phew~ atlast ur the most adorable thing ever. Yang paling rapat, paling ambil berat dkt kakak die ni, paling adorable, semua la paling. Muka je ganas macam gengster org kata, tp hati dia bertaman taman botani siap set dgn rama-rama kekupu bagai.

Ace yg dah bertukar jd makhluk paling manja dgn kakak die :D

Its real hard to part with you syg. Smlm pagi ur soo soo manja, i feel like not sending you away T^T Ace balik rumah lama. hehe. Hope Ace boleh get used cepat2 ya. Ace ade kawan kan Kyon & adik Wolf. I didnt throw u boys away ok. Someday we'll meet again InsyaAllah. Your kindness had always calm me down when I'm down. Thank you Ace.

Wolfie gedik :D

Wolfie yg jinak2 merpati. Wolfie yg mcm doggy. Wolfie yg suka gedik2. I'll definitely be missing you Wolf, love. Wolf nakal, suka wrestling dgn abang2 dia x sedar diri kecik. Suka lari bila time nk masuk cage. Suka makan dkt 3-3 bowl bantai makanan abg2 dia. Suka main fetch bawak mainan ke sana-sini x kasi abg2 dia main. Wolf slalu xyakin bila org nk sentuh dia. Kena buat dia jeles dulu, patting session dgn abg2 die baru die nak terkial2 dtg mintak perhatian. Semua tu buat Wolf sgt comel. Its just a short time together but I really really love you, brother :3 Your playfulness saved me god knows how many times. Thank you Wolfie.

thx Kyon. thx Ace. thx Wolfie.
for all the sweet moments we had shared together. for all the love you boys had given me. for all the comfort. for EVERYTHING. pls know that kakak loves all of you. i'd love to keep you boys with me but that's just me being selfish. you boys wouldnt be happy here, not when there're ppl who hates u boys. please be good at the new home. be a good boy to new mama, to sis DC tau. grow up into a fine healthy handsome adorable kitties. ada rezeki kita jumpe ye.

and also, THANKYOUSOSOSOSOSOSOOMUCH Sis DC sbb sanggup tolong Sha. if x, xtau la sha nk buat ape. sorry susahkan sis m(_ _)m

ok that's all for now. im starting to feel emo all over again and that is not good. huhu. need more rest. fever headache n flu is killin me.

Sebastian Michaelis

2011-05-08T17:55:00.000+08:00

Oh you! why so handsome?

hehe, this is what happened after he accidentally slipped out of my hand |D

mmm I dont like calling him Sebby, what nice nickname should I give him.. I wonder o_O

*thinks*

Mikkun? Mikki? Mike/Maiku? ahh Kuro-kun mo ii ka na.. X3

ho ho ho. *goes fixing Sebastian*

yosh, he's all handsome now :Db

ketua darjah cage

2011-05-08T17:04:00.001+08:00

aunty jiran 2-3 hari ni xde kat rumah. kesempatan ini digunakan sebaik mungkin. bg Budak EEEsuu (nota: Ace dlm sebutan jepun disebut begitu, E macam enak), Budak KyonKyon dengan Budak WufWuf keluar.

bukan main seronok mereka. dpt minum air dr pasu ikan mama. dapat makan rumput. dapat main lidi berebut2. dapat main wrestling tanpa batasan. dapat duduk jauh2 dr litterbox. dapat berteduh di dlm pasu. dapat macam2. haih kasihan.

tp yg sakit jiwa bila dah bg main seharian kat luar, 'ketua darjah' a.k.a taiko a.k.a boss a.k.a KyonKyonkichimichi, atau nama sebenar, Kyon, tak balik2. rebellious stage ke apa budak ni? Tau la dah setahun umur. (besday Kyon: 3/5)

haha, nasib baik pagi subuh die balik. tsk tsk tsk mata comot mcm panda. badan kotorism dan sebagainye. *sekeh Kyon*

budak ni dah beri betis die nak bukan lg peha tp kepala terus.

Kyon. sila contohi Abg Ace dan Adik Wolfie yg sentiasa mudah di tangkap dan pandai pulang dgn cepat selepas bermain.

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fuh, sudah lama blog dibiarkan dimakan kegelapan. nk bg angin baru, cerita pasal kanak2 tu. huhu counting days je ni before adoption day...... haaaaaaaih. *goes crying in one corner*

kejap lg kena p buat kuih lg la ni.... haaaaaaaaih

inner world conflicts are annoying

2011-04-24T19:04:00.000+08:00

i've been realllly moody these days. its raining in my inner world.

*smacks self*

my life lately is nothing but a mess. a complete mess.

i hate the inner conflicts within myself.

examples;
'i want him to come back, but if he comes back i.. uh.. dont really feel like spending time together because im already not used to being together. i miss him but if he's beside me i might feel like its suffocating. im sad because he's nowhere beside me but.. but then.. but.. n so forth' (self, please smack ur self)

'i wanna pursue this path. i love it. but can i do it? what if i'll just get myself lost again n again? maybe im not suit to do this, maybe i should just pick that instead of this. but i love this one instead of that one.' (oh dear myself, ur just making everything hard for ur self)

'i dont mind helping her. but there's a limit to everything. i can help but not continuously. let me relax too. i know im doing nothing most of the time.. but its depressing for me to concentrate on one single thing for a wholeeee day. its you who decided to do all those troublesome things, and you dragged me into it. you are doing it for the sake of your other 2 daughter n im here feeling abandoned. im sad. but i dont mind helping though. just.. treat me better. take care of me and i'll be there for you' (dear me, ur annoying)

dame na musume. yeah im a bad daughter. havent contacted father for like what? 2 months? when im depressed i seriously dont feel like talking/contacting anyone. i just wanna be happy in my own bubble, my own world. but yeah, life can be a bit cruel, there'll always be ppl who from time to time if not always, will try to 'pop' my self-made happy-bubble/world/watever.

*double smacks self*

starting to think that im acting like an abandoned little puppy (or kitten) trying to find something or someone or somewhere that can make me feel at ease |3

talking to people doesnt make me happy too.. lately. some just 'ahh.. ohh uh huh' me. so yeah, i try to bottle up everything inside myself n when i feel like its too much already im about to burst, i'll pour everything in my blog.

i've started to think of making a new blog where i can rant and rant and rant and complain complain and complain alone. because i bet i will start to annoy people if i keep this up, being depressed, sulky etcetera etcetera.

last but not least,
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH?:|

kokoro ga itaii, tamannai gurai. sabishikute, kanashikute gaman dekinai yo >w<

cannot solve anything.

2011-04-21T21:27:00.000+08:00

i've come to think that, crying and talking wouldnt be able to solve anything.

useless. im tired of it. its okay to bottle everything up and keep everything to myself right?

might be bad for me after some times. but oh well. better than troubling people.

whenever i try to talk to people, the problems are being like 1000x meaner to me. they go 'poof' and i go like 'err.. ermm..' describing my problems like an idiot. yeap useless. i cant even tell people what exactly are my problems when they're already kind enough to lend me their ears n sometime eyes.

so many things to think, im tired.

im sad but who cares. no one cares. especially the ones in this house.

i cant even drive properly. infact i still hate driving. double useless. go burn your license, loser.

Senarai Permintaan

2011-04-20T12:53:00.000+08:00

*smacks self*

ok its my short-term wishlist :P

1) i want Sesame Street shirt: red elmo, blue cookie monster. (the ones in ebay are damn expensive |D)

2) i want to go to Botanical Garden in Putrajaya and ride bicycle (SUPER NAK SGT)

3) i want the limited 4gb bunny shaped pendrive in Kinokuniya D:

ahh.. if only i've got some moreee money. sniffs sniffs.

my priority is on number 2. bestie2 yg disayangi if korg free jom la pegi main basikal same2 teehee. aku rindu korg.

do not read this post. just me ranting.

2011-04-12T10:06:00.000+08:00

i cant remember the last time i wrote something in this blog.

its not a good morning.

so many problems idk how and where to start.

heart is burning. head feels heavy. pain.

i know its not like im the only one who have mountains of troubles. but still, im just a weak normal human being. so yeah, bear with me. if you ever feel pissed or annoyed or something, im sorry.

since monsters went to Asrama.. well i dont really care, my room is my world. as long as i've got my DS, my internet then im alright. thing is, its almost exactly the same situation as per that time. lately i've always been alone at home. almost all of my friends arent available to company me. so yeah im alone almost everyday.

i know very well, mom misses the monsters. im too big already to brood over this but still. im not asking for attention or anything, its just that.. idk. mom started teaching Iqra' to kids here and there. for monster's sake. im the type that can survive just with biscuits and breads. but sometimes its just too much. she go out early in the morning, came back at 7 and leave me alone w/o nothing to eat. dont even bother to ask me if i've eaten something or if i want her to buy me something. i feel distant. can you understand? it kinda.. hurts me. i've asked her to accompany me to TS because i feel like buying her some stuffs, she told me, this week should be fine but.. this week its either she scold about this and that or she dont feel like talking to me at all or something.. idk. she's not being supportive abt muet and my study stuffs too. it all me, just me, alone. yeah.

father's rule:
1) my daughter shall not go to other's house
2) people can come and stay whenever they want
3) my daughter should be at home before 7
im not really complaining i can follow the rules. i can still go out, max is like twice a week. but then, when im following people, sometimes i just cant make it on time. im troubling them to send me back home and sometimes they even need to follow my curfew, i. feel. bad. my friends had always told me that its just not fair that they're the only ones who needs to come to my house, and i've never tried to go to their houses before. its not like i dont want, i just cant! :( n no one really wants to come to my house since its farrrrr. sometimes i want to spend long quality time w friends.

blergh~ n now i've got a big problem with my cats :( i seriously do not know what should i do abt this. Allah, please help me. what is the best way to solve the problems? at this rate, i might not be able to keep them with me. n mom is definitely not helping.

i dont hv the mood to talk to my parents lately. i had a dream of that day again.. *sigh*

watever. im gonna cool myself down for now.

here comes dark-shahila again

2011-01-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

sorry readers, this is yet another depressing post from me. this is the only place where i can write freely, to release whatever i've been feeling when i dont really have anyone to talk to. or when talking to anyone doesnt seem to be helping me anymore~

i called my twin today, i feel better after that, thanks twin for spending some of ur precious time for me. hontou ni arigatou :3

but certain someone just had to spoil my day again and again after that, so here i am. ta-daaa?

struggling with inner-self. advicing inner-self. i hope i can see the after-effect soon. i express myself better through scribbles, through writings. i've been scribbling things in my notebook since an hour ago.

money oh money, why are you such a problem? i dont like when money became a problem. now not only my m expecting me to work, my f who's like my very last hope in this whole wide world seems to shove me towards the same thing too. am i that much of a burden? /_\

growing up, i enjoy it. but growing up is also such a pain in the neck. i dont really mind. i dont really care. but growing up is not really a happy thing i guess. so many scary realities waiting for me. im so scared.

i've to do everything on my own now. with my own power. not like im expecting anything but thinking of it makes me kind of sad.

i no longer feel happy on my birthdays. on my birthdays, why in the world am i not happy? sometimes i am even surrounded by people close to me, but why am i there faking my smiles? i repeat, its not like im expecting anything, but i've stopped receiving present from.. certain people.. sometimes even the wishes feels so half hearted. un its okay.. nvm forget it. but dont forget, i dont expect anything it just makes me sad thinking of it.

i no longer feel the warmth on my sick days. when i had fever, i dont feel like going to the doctor. and why is that? because i'll need to pay for myself. i'd rather stay home and wait for my body to fight the viruses itself.

see? growing up is scary. makes me feel like crying. if only i am still a kid, it'd be nice to throw a tantrum, crying loudly. but now, no can do. i'll definitely get a smack or two on my head.

i am the eldest. i dont have any brother or sister to talk to when im feeling sad and blue. my sisters are wayyy younger than me. we're 10 n 11 years apart. i was born on 1990, and 1st monster was born on 2000 followed by the youngest on 2001. see? in future, should anything happen, they'll be under my care. duh, we're like oil n water, we reject, we repel, we are always fighting with each other. well i guess, since i've to take care of them in future, why not fight all i can now? no? bahahaha. that's what i call falsampah (falsafah) shahilashaifful. im such a useless sister, arent i?

the pressure of being the eldest. haha. i need a job that can support them well in future. but seeing how uncompetitive i am, im starting to worry. worried sick. i dont like 'new'. new environment scares me. like how i hate taking driving lessons. like how i feel reluctant taking MUET this year. how am i going to get a good job in future? i wonder~

i've tried summarizing some of my worries that are currently buzzing like mad in my head;

1) need work but where

2) cats expenses

3) payments need to be made

4) broadband problem/payment

5) university to continue studies (the procedures etc)

6) MUET. no idea abt MUET.

7) driving license. hate.

8) MARA loan had stopped. where to get money for #2? #4?

mmm i might have crossed the borderline this time. been long since the last time i talked this much on my private matter. some of you here might not understand few things in here, (LOL as if there's anyone out there free enough to read my rants) because there were so many things i feel like telling but i cant. few things arent meant to be disclosed. no choice but to keep it no other place but in me.

oh life..

its okay, there must be a reason. everything happens for a reason.

lost and it sucks ._.

2011-01-04T17:34:00.000+08:00

and that is what, me, I, ShahilaShaifful, who is currently a full time grape-grower.. thought, at the moment. |D

oh btw, im gonna try to write in full english in this post. i'll talk uh i mean, type anything that crosses my head. why? because few months doing nothing at home, had caused major harm on my english. rusty, vocabs almost close to nothing.

*cries in one corner with a self spotlight*

not okay. not at all. hauu desu~

these days, lately, when mom's friends came over to my house, the moment they saw me, they'll start asking;

'eh skrg anak u buat ape?'

'keje? dah habis diploma kan?'

'xnak keje ke?'

and as expected my mom had started nagging sessions from time to time, to try find some jobs out there, experience something good for future. yeah i appreciate that, but you know it can be depressing, SO SO DEPRESSING when everytime i met ur friends they just had to make me feel 'erghhh' by asking those questions listed above again and again.

plus i was informed that the IPTA intakes would be on Sept starting this year? WTH? what am i going to dooooooooo?

not okay. not at all. hauuu desu~

my friends, most of them, had started working. with a nice pay every month too. some of them are still working in IT related field but no codings. sounds nice to me, but its far. its not worth it when you have got anice pay and half of em goes to bills, lrt expenses etc. err at least that's what i thought. its better to work as a sales assistant in the store here in seri petaling. i can save money by bringing foods from home, the work place is also within walking distance. but mom said, that kind of work wont help me gain any good/useful experiences.

not okay. not at all. hauuu desu~

the only thing that is crystal clear to me right now is; i love teaching. i love languages.

okay so i have decided to change path change course from an IT student to TESL.

but first i'll need to take MUET. and that's not something i'll enjoy, thinking how my english had gone from bad to worse to worst.

can i really be a TESL student? can i can i can i?

feels like taking UPSI. then i can teach my favourite subject; maths. then mom said, 'right be a teacher and dont complaint when you got places in pedamalan or kampung2' |D

who's going to take care of my dear kyonkyon and anggish? T_T

not okay. not at all. hauuu desu~

my uncle who is a lecturer, suggested me to go to my highschool and try asking if there's any position for a temporary teacher. sounds nice too. i'd love to teach maths or even PJK. anything can do. I miss school.. somehow XD;

googled about guru sandaran, and found out there're few procedures need to be done yadayadayada, sigh.

browsed jobstreet and found out certain KUMON centres are in need of a asst. teacher and markers. but those places are far and also, even if its just english for kids, i dont have the confidence. those kid's english might better than me. hahaha. why oh why can i speak english fluently? |D

oh yes, how about kindergarten teacher? there're quite many kindergartens ard here. no thanks, im afraid that the kids might be awarded with few smack downs from me everytime it gets annoying bahaha~

i want to work in bookstores. i love books. but then, working in such place will definitely need me to go home late. not only that, i'll have to take lrts too. at night? *shivers* mom wont let me, im sure.

not okay. not at all. hauuu desu~

MARA loan stopped last month. now I'll only receive some pocket money from father, and uhh i'll have to share the money with my nyau-brothers. haha, today's world is cruel. everything is expensive. money flows like water 8D;

not okay. not at all. hauuu desu~

what Im trying to say is, i am seriously lost right now and it sucks. its that feeling again. the feelings i've got after SPM. the only thing that is different would be: atleast i kind of know my path this time; i want to learn languages/teaching.

it'd be nice if i can talk to someone. parents? nopie dokie. ^^; because i need someone who can understand me. someone who's working in IT field maybe can suggest me few works an IT student like me can do after some training, and the work of course, no codings prease. XD; but i just cant find one. talking to friends? mmm.. still. i dont feel like bugging them with my problems. they're trying hard to figure out their paths too. talking to a counselor? HAHAHA i dont even know if there's any in KPTM, even if there's one, dont want to~ |D i prefer my high school's counselor.. but i wonder if its a good idea to talk to them.. mm will give it a try later.. maybe~

ahhh its making me tired already thinking of all this future-related stuffs. have no choice but to face it. for now, it's nice if i can find a job that i can enjoy. o' Allah help me see my way please ;_;

im hopeless. what am i good at? i dont know. tired. tired. tired.

sesi photoshoot bersame adik-adik

2010-12-03T16:59:00.000+08:00

hari ini sambung baca buku Kurikulum Pendidikan Pemandu. AHAHA. amazing gila tak, thinking how i can sleep almost anywhere, everywhere, any secs after reading only 2-3pages of the book. kebencian yg terbukti membuak-buak XDv

bila bosan, shahilashaifful suka turun bawah, duduk tepi sliding door. atau keluar dan duduk tepi cage kyon dan manggish. auto-TENANG bila gelagat lihat mereke. tak kira la time makan ke, tido ke, tertonggeng ke, wrestling ke, berebut tempat ke.

semalam, lepas tengok anime, pukul 2pagi.. rasa haus. turun bawah. terpandang sliding door, rasa rindu tetibe buang tebiat dekat budak2 kecik ni. nak keluar takut sebab dh pukul 2 pagi kan XD; jenguk la.

lihat mata itu. mata itu yang buat cik shahilashaifful terus jatuh cinta dekat Manggish bila first time tengok gambar dia. hehe. Mata bulat, shining, berkilat, berkaca. ♥ ♥

ketuk2 sikit sliding door, terus membulat mata anggish lepas tu die turun dari platform die dan macam biasala kyon tak bagi XD teknik stretch memanjangkan badan digunekan anggish dengan jaya nye dan menyempit dekat platform kyon dan hulur2 'tangan' dekat kaca sliding door. itu la anggish, kakak kate jum masuk dalam tak mau ^^;

anggish dan iyon same2 menikmati pemandangan dalam rumah di tengah pagi. kyon memang muka ngantuk habis tertanya2 apa la tetibe abg anggish ni buat dekat platform dia keh keh.

lama pulak tu kitorg pandang memandang. si kyon sampai tertidur balik tak kuasa nak layan dah. anggish macam ajak keluar, nak main kut. tapi dah pukul 2 pagi la sayang, mana boleh kakak keluar. dengan berat hatinye cik shahilashaifful pun beransur pulang ke bilik dengan azam esok pagi masak ayam rebus utk budak kecip dua org ni :D

esoknye..

pantang datang dekat cage.. tengok anggish relax je, kyon terkinja kinja cari jalan keluar utk lompat jauh lantas melarikan diri dari cage. itu tangan cik shahilashaifful menahan kyon dari keluar :)) anggish dgn cool nye duduk atas je ke? tak..

betul kata sis DC. anggish hobinya menyondol manja. bila dtg dekat dengan cage manja-meter die terus ke level maximum. tapi dekat cage je la, spt yg diterangkan smlm, anggish masih tidak yakin utk didukung keluar. dulu kalau dtg dekat cage, anggish terus cabut masuk dlm litterbox dan keras kan badan. skrg dah mula nak manja.

mungkin haritu lepas duduk dengan dia sejam dua dlm cage kecil, die nak ajak saye main dalam cage dengan die kot. tak boleh la anggish sayang, cage ini besar tapi pintunye kecik. jalan penyelesaian? cik shahilashaifful akan masuk separuh badan dalam cage dan sondol2 kepala dengan anggish sambil usap2 die sambil dengar anggish purr purr. fuhh~ best :Dv

bila dah tak layan die dekat atas tu sebab nak bersihkan cage, anggish bergerak ke bawah pulak sambil stretching2. lihatlah badan anggish yg taff panjang ramping hebat hensem yg menjadi idaman kyon tu :))

lagi skali sesi manja sondol2 anggish. cik shahilashaifful tidak berlengah lagi terus keluarkan hp nye utk tidak melepaskan peluang emas utk menyenep (snap) gambar adik anggish nye XDb

sementara anggish masih meminta perhatian dgn bermanja2, kyon bermuka masam mencuka seperti yg dpt dilihat di atas: sedih, tidak puas ati di tepi sebab jalan keluar dihalang kakaknye yang bersize gergasi jika dibandingkan dengan size beliau. :)) keshian kyon.

lepas dah siap lap2 cage, tukar air semua, time utk mereka makan tengah hari. menu spesyel arini, ayam rebus sbb adik berdua ni sedikit cherryberry smlm. hoho tengok tak pandang kiri kanan dah, makan sampai licin. sehelai ayam pun tak tinggal. anggish makan dengan laju, sedap sgt ke ayam rebus ni di lidah kucing? XD; *curious*

kyon semenjak dua menjak ni jarang menunjukkan selera melampau macam dulu. bagusla, dia ni perut sensitip, makan lebih sikit, cherrryberry. tidak boleh beri free flow food makan kena ada jadual. 3 kali sehari. tadi ayam kyon tak habis die pergi lepak di bawah skali. tup tap tup tap, tengok2 anggish dah diam2 tolong habiskan ayam kyon AHAHAHA :)) kesian anggish, lapar lagi ke budak kecil ni. bagus anggish, dilarang membazir XDb

Manggish yg macho :3

bila dah kenyang, incik hensem bagi peluang kepada kakak nye utk sesi photography. lihatlihat, anggish dengan collar pink kacak kan? jambu sedikit? :)) muka garang dan macho bercampur element comel disertai dengan background towel barbie telah menghasilkan balance. (abaikan kemerepekan cik shahilashaifful disini. kerjasama anda sgt dihargai XD)

nak ambik gambar ni haruslah cik shahilashaifful sumbat 1/2 badan masuk dalam cage tu |D isk isk. tertonggeng2, sungguh tak manis dipandang oleh jaga-jaga yang meronda. tapi apa saya pedulik? nak jugak berangan macam photographer profesyenel kan? :))

ok habis sekian saje photoshoot arini. sebenarnye x de idea nk tulis ape tapi saje gatal tangan rela buat benda lain daripada bace buku memandu yg tak bes langsung tu BWAHAHAHA *gelak ebill*

lalala~ byebye dulu \(^0^)/

miyau hitam dan oren

2010-12-02T10:22:00.000+08:00

siapa hitam dan oren?

siapa lagi kalau bukan; anggish dan iyon XD

mereka kawan sekarang. rasanya. dulu jumpa wajib hissing hissing, tak sudi nak lihat muka sesama sendiri. first time jumpe, kyon jual mahal, hiss hiss je kejenye. jeles anggish dilayan baik oleh kakak die ni mungkin. lepas tu, kyon mula tunjuk minat nak berkawan, abg koko dah tak ada, skrg abg baru nama manggish :3 tapi sape suruh kyon jual mahal, sekarang turn manggish pulak nak hiss hiss kat dia. keke masa gambar kat atas ni, dorg masih duduk dalam separate cage, kyon hulur tangan nak kawan, tapi sampai tertidur tak dilayan kekeke. XD;

manggish seorg (haha) yang pemalu, sopan santun dan sentiasa ketakutan *pats2*

haritu try bagi masuk rumah. manje nampaknye berguling sane sini, jalan macam askar, nak dekat kena dengan penuh hati-hati tanpa bunyi. time malam, nak tangkap masuk cage, dia punya lari lintang pukang macam kena kejau hantu. |D anggish oh anggish muka kakak ni menakotkan ke? maka biarla anggish dalam rumah semalaman. taktau sapa punya kerja, pintu store tak tutup rapat, anggish ghaib esok nye. cuak. jenguk2 dlm store, gelap gulita xberlampu. gerak hati kate pasti anggish dlm store. maka buat operasi menyelongkar store, skali time dah nak sampai penghujung store berbentuk L tu, ada la sekeluarga lipas membuat cik shahilashaifful menjerit lari macam tak cukup tanah. madam mama bengang, dia pun vacuum seketul2 lipas. hebatkan bonda saya? :)) tetibe anggish cuak dengar vacuum die pun mencicit keluar, ambik carrier terus tangkap beliau dan hantar ke cage.

esok tu mama masukkan anggish dlm cage besar bersame kyon. mama cakap kalau tak satukan sampai bila nak bergaduh? hoho. cakap mama itu benar. ok pulak bila dah duduk satu cage.

anggish macam biasa duduk dicorner celah cage. yang lawaknye, si kyon slalu tak puas ati, anggish ambil platform paling tinggi, yg dulunye tempat kyon lepak :)) sekali sekala kyon naik atas tu bersempit dengan anggish, nnt dorg wrestling sampai salah satu terpelanting jatuh or tangga jatuh bawah |D setakat ni nampak tak ada main ganas, gigit cakar tu ada, tapi macam kyon buat dekat abang koko die, gaduh manja agaknye :D selalu yang terpelanting tu kyon. kasihan beliau tapi lawak kalau tengok. sungguh die tak puas hati. so cakap dengan kyon 'xpe la kyon, itu kan abang, kyon duduk je la kat platform tingkat 2 tu. hormat yang tua' kehkeh.

gambar menunjukkan kyon sedang protes bosan duduk dalam cage XD

semalam kyon buat dengki, dia halang tangga utk anggish turun. anggish yang segak lagi tampan ni berbadan, kaki dan tangan panjang, die stretch badan die sampai platform no 2 lalu turun, xperlu tangga. bertambah rasa dengki kyon yang serba kontot dan kembung NYAHAHA. tak pe la sayang, kontot dan kembung tu kan comei je. kakak sayang. XDb

notakecil: kyon bosan. minggu ni rumah ada tetamu tetami ramai ada anak2 kecil, jadi tak boleh masukkan kyon dalam rumah sbb die overload nakal. anggish pula.. tak mahu orang angkat2 XD;;

anggish sekarang masih tak mahu orang dukung, tapi kalau pegi dekat cage je, die nak diusap, sondol sane sini manja sangat. dah sha cuba pujuk dengan wet food, treat, cat nip, toys, tapi setiap kali nak angkat dia, die pergi corner dan keraskan badan, keluarkan kuku dan berpaut dekat cage ;_; memang tak boleh nak diangkat. patut paksa angkat ke, atau biar dia percaya sha baru angkat? minta tolong tunjuk ajar? *kelip mata shining2* mungkin kena bersabar dengan bercakap dan usap2 dia lagi dan lagi setiap hari :3

sekarang kyon, time bg makan or bersihkan litterbox je, lincah je nak lepaskan diri dari cage, melompat jauh keluar cage utk berjalan di dunia luar |D tsk tsk. semalam madam mama TERtaktutup cage bebetul lantas pegi pasar. maaka terlepas la kanak-kanak hitam dan oren ni. ai, nak kata kawan bestfren belum la kot, tapi dah jadi partner in crime. tak sangka anggish pun ikut jejak langkah kyon smlm. mama pulang dan pelik nampak ada hitamhitam kat pagar, skali jejenguk haaaa tu dia, 2 budak tengah santai santai. nak tangkap bukan main susah, kyon mcm pelesit, zuppp zappp dia lari. boleh hilang kalori banyak kalau kejar die. ada la 30minit terbuang nak tangkap beliau. si anggish ketakutan, nyorok2 dan berjalan ala askar ke cage, tapi bukan masuk cage, die panjat cage |D mama tangkap terus sumbat semula 2-2 dalam cage. masa tu cik shahilashaifful masih tidur nyenyak btw :))

anggish posing! semalam akhirnye dapat pakaikan anggish collar pink. :)))))

me: anggish sayang, kakak dari haritu nak pakaikan anggish collar ni

kyon: HAHAHAHA WARNA PINK :P

me: eh byk bunyi pulak budak kecik ni pang kiri kanan kang :)) *pok manja*

anggish: kakak kenapa pinkk kenapaaa? whyyy?

kyon: hik hik hik. kyon nye warne itam. wekk

me: alerr, ensem boy pakai warna ape pun macho. 2 in 1. macho dan comel.

anggish: ye keeee?

me: jgn byk bunyi ye budak budak :P

kalau tengok budak 2 ni terbayang halloween taktau kenapa. warna macam tema halloween kot. itam oren.

nanti nak beli ayam nak rebus bagi budak dua ni makan. dorang sakit perut pulak tahi lembut, hampir cherry berry. semalam2 kedai kucing tutup, back up yang ada royal canin. tak serasi rupanya. isk isk. maaf ye adik adik. lain kali sebelum abis kakak cepat2 pegi beli makanan. ;_;

ok setakat tu je update utk kali ini. cik shahilashaifful masih moody sebab isnin kena paksa pegi amik ujian computer driving. taktau kenapa kepala ni set tak suka driving, rasa sakit jiwa. haha.

BONUS! game, SPOT the ANGGISH XDb

cuba cari beliau di dalam gambar ini dalam masa 5 saat!

btw fact of the day: patut nye nak panggil anggish; Shingo. Shin means 'true, truth'. Perkataan ni berkait rapat dengan; 'shinjitsu' reality, 'shinjiru' to place trust in. rasanya kanji yg digunakan sama. sempena usaha untuk buat anggish trust dekat cik shahilashaifful, maka nak letak nama Shin. tapi pendek lah, so guna nama salah satu fav artist jpn, Shingo from SMAP :D tapi malangnye, shahilashaifful sendiri dah terbiasa panggil manggish as anggish :)) HAHAHA

p/s: kalau sis DC bace ni, hehe entry ni khas utk sis as an update. ampun, sha ckp nk buat cecepat, lambat benau update on manggish. semua salah mood swing sha :)) sha masih berjuang utk memujuk anggish ni. if sis ada apa2 nasihat sila beri tunjuk ajar keke (^0^)9

hiatus

2010-11-28T10:07:00.000+08:00

*waves waves*

anybody missh me? :D

no? ^^;

ahh i cant even remember when was the last time i opened this blog. macam ni la shahila shaifful. dia suka tenggelam timbul. asal ada yg tak kena dengan mood, dia hilang. semua msg tak reply, semua comment buat tak tahu. hilang senyap sunyi. dah seminggu plus satu hari, birthday wishes dibiarkan.

for those who wished me on my birthday, i've read all of them. thank you, yg wish ke, yg igt tapi tak wish ke, semua pun sayang :) you guys & girls made my day like seriously. i am always like that, whenever it come to special days, i've got this urge to hide myself in my own bubble, my own world, my own shell ^^;

im stupid, no? i dont like loneliness, i hate it but i dont like crowds too. in crowds, say a birthday party, you can find me in one corner alone if not by my close friends. im weird like that. maybe i just love to observe people, it made me less lonely i guess :3

im not sombong garang or whatever its just that- that's the face i was born with, got any problem with that? and i am always shy unless i've known you for quite some time. to start me up, you just need to be friendly and talk to me first. simple isnt it? i've had enough people telling me my face is so garang they feel so scared they cant even start talking to me.

ok enough with my ramblings XD;

all th ebirthday wishes, i'll reply them slowly :D hontou ni arigatou gozaimashita minnna, shiawase desu!

ok lah nak bg adikadik bulus makan :D

oh jap, i might be on hiatus again after this. after all i think my mood is still under construction (apekah?) :S

so till the day i feel like writing again see ya! :D

TwenTEEN

2010-11-20T10:25:00.000+08:00

ohayou minna (^0^)7

kyo, hatachi ni narimashita. yep today i turned twenteen :3

hayaii na, its fast, too fast. i turned 20 but im still too childish, more like a child trapped in a 20 y/o body. hehe dont expect me to be a mature person, can never be. oh wait, i can but i refused to.

un, first & foremost, Thank you Allah for these wonderful years you've given me. for all the irreplaceable wonderful friends you gave me.

ok mcm biasa, tak ada mood secara automatik masa hari tua. haha. |D

because, on my birthdays, i've always felt like something is missing, something is not right ^^;

btw, im baking a cake, muffins & pudding with mom for the first time in my life. a good thing for me but at the same time i knw its gonna cause excessive unwanted fat later sighhh.

im getting fat & fatter. yaaadaaaa~

post birthday apekah ini? mcm bosan je. :))

ok lah berenti membebel. hoping for a good day today! ^^v

will update later :3

a-twenTEEN-years-old-girl's-wishlist

2010-11-13T19:39:00.000+08:00

Ehem, afternoon readers. Since in few more days, i'll turn twenTEEN, i repeat TWEN-TEEN, for those who're having a hard time thinking of 'what present to buy for me' (muahaha).. emm you know, since im a good girl and all and i dont like troubling people, i think this might help (muwahaha lagi)

here's my wishlist for this year:

1) SMAP concert goodies (MAHAL gile ni tau, cara pembelian sila hubungi cik shahilashaifful XD)

pouch, concert pamphlet, cap, sport towel & phone strap.

2) Alphonse DX figure (here)

3) A watch. Baby-G/G-Shock, perhaps?

4) Full set of certain manga(S)

hanakimi volume 9,10, 14, 15 (kot), then few other mangas i wish i can buy. sigh satu biijik je rm30-37. T___T gosh~

What else.. emm tetibe lupe pulak nak ape |D cis. xpe nnt update lg. HAHAHA.

Waii~ semua barang mahal2. Mau habis rm1000-rm2000 nak beli semua ni. but its just a wishtlist. lalala. hehe Im too miskin to buy them myself since my cats own my wallet and its contents now... *mata shining2 88888megawatt* XD

Oh srsly I dont like hari tua. hmm komatta na~

Ok lah tu je for today. :D